Conversations with John XII

A conversation with John long before the Twilight mania…

Ma-an: You’re impossible fast. You’re strong. You’re skin is pale white and ice cold. You don’t go out in the sunlight.

John: Say it, say it out loud!

Ma-an: VamPIG! You are a VamPIG!

End of kabaliwan.

Life and Death

One of the hardest things for me to deal with, by far, is death. I’d like to believe that I am not afraid to die. I’d like to believe that death is really inevitable. I’d like to believe that, death, like change is life’s constant.

But no matter how hard I think about it, death scares me. The fact not knowing just scares me even more.

Death in the family, no matter how tragic and sad it is, cohesively binds us all the more.

Lola Paring, we will miss you.

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If I had my way, I’d start 2009 better than this. The passing away of my lola is not a good way to start the year no matter how hard we try to deal with it logically. Losing someone is plain and simple sad.

We’re just consoled with the fact that she didn’t have to suffer long and that she’s now with Papa J and Lolo S.

*****

If there’s one thing I learned out of this, is that it solidified the fact that nothing in this world is permanent. We all have to live life to the fullest and avoid regrets. Deal with might-have-beens and do everything that we can while we still can.

Live, laugh and love freely!
Live without regrets.

Seize the day and make the most out of it.

My 2009 Resolutions

Since it's 2009, I've come up with my resolutions. I hope to keep them, so help me God.

• Smoke less. Well, I don't smoke on a daily basis. Usually, when I'm just out having coffee or if I'm on a party. I hope to keep it that way. I don't smoke daily, unless super busog and bloated ang feeling ko.
• Drink more water. I know 8 glasses a day is OA for me. To keep it realistic, 2-3 glasses a day. I am resigned to the fact that I can't take Coke out of my system. As a compromise, I will try to keep it to a minimum.
• Moderate Bag shopping. I am a self-confessed bagoholic! Bags are like drugs to me. I know they're bad for the budget yet I can't seem to stop myself. Stopping is like killing myself. So, I'll just have it moderated. If I see a bag that I like, I will think about it 5 times. If after 5 times of contemplation and I still can't get it out of my system, then I'll buy it. But if I somehow "forget" about it, then it's not mine to buy.
• Moderate Havaianas shopping. (same as above)
• Save more. I'll spend less on things that aren't important and save more for the rainy days.
• Laugh more. I'll try not to think too much of the things that are over and done with, therefore, can't be changed. Think less of things that are insignificant to me like why this person is like this or why that person is like that. Again, some things (and persons) can't be changed. I just have to accept that fact.
• Learn a new word at least every other day. Thesaurus and Dictionary baby!
• Communicate with my lovedones more. What is piso for a text if I know na I will make my Mama or Tita or long-lost friend smile diba?

This is all I can think of for now...

2008 – The Year That Was

Here’s a recap of my 2008.

MY FAITH

My faith will always get me going. No matter how tough it gets, I know I can do it because no matter how big the problem is, I have a bigger faith and bigger God.

MY FAMILY

Your family will always be your family. They will stick by you through thick and thin. They will always take you as you are with and without the imperfections.

I’m just so lucky because I have an understanding and loving family. I love them and they love me – enough said.

MY CHI

I will always be thankful that I have John in my life. Life can’t get any better than this. With life’s ups and downs, everything’s alright with him by my side. To borrow Edward’s words for Bella -- John is my life now.

I am hoping that this year would finally be the year. I am keeping my fingers crossed. Let this be the year.

MY FRIENDS

I love my friends with all my heart and with all that I am. I know that I can and will do anything within my powers for them. I’m just so lucky knowing that they feel the same way towards me. They will always be my persons no matter what. I may stumble upon challenges and road blocks once in while but it’s okay because I have my friends to cheer me up and support me all the way.

As I grow older, I realize that my priorities changes. These are my priorities for now.

2008 has been a good year to me. I’ve nothing to complain about as I was able to breeze through it unscathed.

I’m very thankful for all the things that transpired, no matter how great or small, important or insignificant, happy or sad – for these all helped me become who I am right now.

As for 2009… bring it on!