Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Life After the Baclaran Incident

After the unfateful Baclaran incident, I just seem to have lost the appetite to write (buti na lang hindi to eat-- haha!).

To those who haven’t heard about it yet, here’s the gist. We went to Baclaran last November 30th para sana

makatipid sa ibang gifts for our relatives. While inside a store, John became too comfortable that he didn’t realize that he wasn’t holding my bag anymore. What was lost? My RL houndstooth bag, my W890 phone, my Samsung flip-top phone (which was free for my Sun post-paid line), John’s gold necklace (a gift from his Mom), his gold bracelet (a gift from me for our 2nd Christmas), his watch (my gift for our 5th Anniversary) and lastly, my diamond engagement ring, cash, IDs and some other stuff.

I have no other intention but to rant about what we lost that day.

Pero sabi nga ng karamihan, pwede pa naman namin ulit kitain yung perang nawala at pwede pa ulit kaming bumili nung mga bagay na nawala. But still, it can’t be helped na we feel sad when we remember what happened.

If I can turn back time, okay na mawala lahat huwag lang sana

yung ring ko.

But I can’t turn back time. So I’ll just be thankful na we weren’t hurt and that this incident proved na we are truly loved by our friends.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Monday, November 24, 2008

Conversations with John XI

We went to Greenhills yesterday. We checked out the pricelist of iPhone and Samsung Omnia kasi. I've been telling John kasi na I want an iPhone since it was released last year. Since usapang Christmas gifts na, habang naghihintay kami na makalabas sa parking lot...

Me: Chi, ano'ng gusto mo na Christmas gift?

John: Nothing. I just want to see you happy and I'm happy na.

Me: (Speechless)

John: Hindi nga po. I am serious. I am a simple person with simple aspirations and dreams. If I just see you happy, I'm also happy.

Aaww... ang sweet naman.

Life can't get any better than this.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

iPhone or Samsung Omnia?

I'd appreciate feedback on both phones.

I've been really thinking of getting an iPhone for myself.

Why? It's stylish and it looks nice. I know, ang babaw. I guess I'd have to review the specs more. If we'll be spending around 30K for a phone, might as well know what I'm getting myself into.

Will iPhone be worth it? I really need feedback especially from those who has one (of course, hehe) or those who are just simply in the know.

Another phone that I'm looking at is Samsung Omnia.

Just like iPhone, it also looks stylish. Touchscreen din sya and I guess, has some features the same as that of iPhone.

Just like with iPhone, I'd have to seriously study the specs and reviews for this phone. No idea how much it costs though.

Feedback would be highly appreciated. I currently have W900. It's a walkman phone and it takes decent pictures naman. It's also touchscreen but the screen isn't as big as that of iPhone or Omnia (I think).

Anyways, feedback anyone?

Monday, November 17, 2008

My Christmas Wishlist

Daig ng maagap ang masipag. Kaya naman ngayon pa lang, I am starting my Christmas Wishlist na, hehe.

Twilight: The Complete Illustrated Movie Companion

by: Stephenie Meyer

Shadow Music

by: Julie Garwood

I don't care if it's 3G or not. Or kung ano pa man. Basta iPhone. Hehe. Hindi naman ako choosy.

This is it for now. Will just update this from time to time.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Why I'm so into Christmas...

As we traveled along Ayala Avenue last night, I realized na the streets are garbed with Christmas decors na. And yes, just a few more weeks, pasko na naman!

I’ve always been a Christmas person. I just love everything about Christmas.

Syempre, una na sa list is yung 13th month pay. Everyone deserves it. After working hard for the last 12 months, aba dapat naman talaga, may reward.

For some reason, talagang I love Christmas. Siguro because I have the fondest memories of celebrating it with my family. When I was growing up, we always go to the province and spend the holidays with our relatives. At dahil malaki ang pamilya ko, super saya palagi and of course, exciting ang gift giving rituals. Through the years, even after I started working, I make sure na even if I can’t be with them, I have a “little something” for my family and relatives. Lalo na sa mga lolo, lola, tito and titas ko. Kasi when I was growing up, they also made sure na may “little something” akong matatanggap once the clock strikes 12 and we start with the gift giving.

It’s just ironic though, I am a Christmas person and John is simply not. He’s not the Grinch naman or anything. In fact, he’s very supportive lalo na when I do my Christmas shopping. Though I hear complaints every now and then, it’s somehow a bonding time for us and he really makes sure that he shops or rather, tags along with me. I guess he’s not a fan of Christmas because he didn’t have a lot of good memories. For him, Christmas season means that it’s December. When it’s December, it’s cold. And when it’s cold, not everyone is well. Close friends would surely know what I mean by this.

Anyway, we once had a plan of tying the knot in December. In fact, we wanted it this December. But due to several reasons, the plan just can’t be accommodated as much as we wanted to.

Yes, I want to get married in December. Why? Simple. I want John to start looking at December differently. Gusto ko maisip nya na December isn’t so bad at all dahil we got married in December, dahil pwedeng maging masaya ang Disyembre, dahil it’s not too late for us to start making memories of our own. Na kahit he didn’t have great Christmas celebrations in the past, we can start making ours together. Na I am here to celebrate all Christmases with him for always. Na I will do everything within my power to make sure na masaya sya at though I can’t erase the past, I am here to make things better for the long haul.

At this point, I’d like to borrow my mentor’s reason why they sang a Christmas song on my birthday last June!

Chi, Disyembre man o hindi, it’s always Christmas when I’m with you.

Monday, November 03, 2008

Hmp, Panget!

Bakit ganun, minsan, kung sino pa ang pangit, sila pa ang may pangit na pag-uugali?

Dahil ba sa tingin nila e they have nothing to lose dahil pangit na sila?

O defense mechanism nila yun?

Hmmm... hindi po ako nagmamaganda, I'm just thinking out loud.

Ang daming instances na kasi na may mga pangit na "nagmamaganda".

Gamitin ko lang yung linya ni Alfie nung minsang may inaway sya na manager sa McDo dahil sa attitude problem...

"Ang panget-panget mo na nga, ang panget-panget pa ng ugali mo!"

Hay. Ampanget!

PS. Bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan wag magagalit. Hindi po ako super ganda, hindi rin naman po ako pangit. May times na nagmamaldita ako, pero I make sure na nasa lugar ako.

Conversations with John X

This post is long overdue.

When John and I ate at Amici last month, we noticed na the crew takes the "self-service" policy quite seriously.

At napansin din naman na the servers didn't have trouble asking us to "go there, go back there and go back here" for our orders and special requests.

Anyway, since we didn't finish our pizza, John decided to call one of the waiters to have the rest of the pizza "to go".

John (to waitress): For take-out na yung pizza.
Waitress: Okay po, punta kayo dun (sabay turo sa cashier). Sabay alis...

John (to Me): Grabeng tamad naman ng mga tao dito.
Me: E self-service daw po e.
John: Baka mamaya, tayo pa paghugasin ng pinggan at baso natin.


Hahaha.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Bukas...

...mababawasan ng isang makapal na folder ang mga floor files ko.

Floor file na kumapal in time dahil sa mga coaching logs para sa iba't-ibang bagay na ikaw lang ata ang may kayang gumawa.

"I don't believe that OI."

"It works for me..."


Bukas, mag-iiba na ang routine ko.
Ang lunch time ko na usually 8:30AM, definitely, mababago.
Ang schedule ng mga lunch buddy ko, bukas, mababago.
Kung dati, umiikot kay Aya at sayo kasama si Luv at Jai, bukas, baka iba na.

Bukas, mababawasan ang isa sa mga matinding rason kung bakit in spite of everything that's been happening to me at work, okay pa rin ako kahit papaano.

Bukas, masayang masaya ako.
Dahil sabi nga nila, dapat masaya ka para sa mga kaibigan mo.
Masaya ako dahil finally, you are getting what you deserve.
Finally, masasabi natin na may pag-asa pa pala.

Bukas, ang napakakapal na floor file mo, ibibigay ko na kay Mira.
Dahil bukas, magiging QA analyst ka na at mawawala ka na sa team ko.

Bukas, mawawalan ako ng isang floor file.
Bukas, sana floor file lang ang mawala.
Huwag pati makukulay na bagay na pwede mong i-share sa akin.

Bukas, gaya ng lagi kong sinasabi at sinusulat sayo... You will make me proud!

Friday, October 17, 2008

Today...

...I found out that a very dear friend resigned effective immediately.

This may be for the best. I hope that you finally find what you're looking for.

I will surely miss...

...confiscating your clip/ rubber band everytime tinatali mo yung buhok mo after it was just rebonded.

...your tomboyish ways.

...the possiblity na iisa lang ang medyas na suot mo sa pagpasok mo sa office.

...your topak.

...excuse (reason) na masakit tyan mo everytime yayayain kita na umalis.

...your creativity (lalo na sa pag-decorate ng boards sa office).

...oreos (ar any food) straight from your pocket.

...pagiging makulit and pasaway.

Most of all, I will surely miss you.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

First Time...

... to eat at Amici.

The food wasn't THAT great. Probably because I was expecting for too much? Hmm. The gelato was okay. Pasta was okay. Pizza was okay.

Just okay.

+++++

...to read a book in just 3-4 hours.

Just like what Gladys said, I outdid myself this time, and yes, I am a freak. I loved Twilight right away! I loved the feeling of being so young, giddy and so in-love (even if it's with a vampire). I can only imagine how Edward looks like (if he exists).

Kaya naman we had to get the 3 remaining books the next day! I read Twilight last Saturday. I read New Moon and Eclipse the next day, Sunday. And I finished Breaking Dawn last Monday.

Oo, adik! And yes, naintindihan ko yung kwento.

+++++

…that someone from Starbucks spelled my name right.

Ma-an, with a dash.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Ano ba ang feeling ng WIN?

Pumasok ako sa office kahapon na full of confidence. It’s our team’s third week on WIN. Sa mga hindi nakakaalam, WIN stands for W---- Improvement Notice. Otherwise known as Performance Improvement Plan. In short, dahil hindi kami umaabot sa target, we’re given 3 weeks to prove our worth. 3 weeks to prove na contrary to what our CSAT is saying, hindi po kami kamote. Na hindi kami naka-graduate sa kolehiyo nang ganun-ganun na lang. Na hindi man kami super talino, marunong at may alam kami kaya nga natanggap kami sa kumpanyang pinagtatrabahuhan namin. Na nung we were interviewed for the job, nakita nung recruitment specialist na we have “it”.

Pero sa kasamaang palad, sa industriya (at account) na kinabibilangan namin, “you’re only good as your last CSAT”. Kumbaga sa contest, wala sa criteria ang “efficiency and effectivity”, “leadership skills”, “initiative” at maski “behavior towards work”. Basta ang mahalaga, yung CSAT.

Di ko naman sila masisisi. Kasi sabi nga nila, bread and butter ng account and CSAT. Na sa tuwing hindi umaabot ang site sa goal, limpak limpak na dolyares ang binabayaran ng kumpanya sa client.

Anyway, yun na nga. I went to work feeling confident that this will be our team’s last week in agony. Na next week is a better week. Na next week, hindi na kami “WINner”.

Kaso hindi. Our team got a bad score which didn’t meet the goal. Wala naming scientific na explanation kung bakit nagkaganun. Kasi kung meron, matagal na naming ginamit yung scientific equation para mataas ang score namin at hindi kami under stress. Kaso nga wala. Ginawa naman naming yung dapat gawin. Kinausap at na-coach naman namin yung mga bangkero. Nag-3X3 naman kami. 5X5. Minsan nga, 10X10 pa. Nakabantay naman kami sa kanila. Kaso, kinapos e. Maghapon naman kaming naglalakad sa spine nila. Maski nga wala siguro akong scoliosis, sumasakit na likod ko e.

Hay, ano bang punto ko? Am I trying to make a point here?

Simple lang. Nakakabwisit lang isipin na sa lahat-lahat ng nagawa mo, sa CSAT ka lang titimbangin. Na maski perfect attendance at compliance ka, olats kas kung bagsak and CSAT mo. Na sa tinagal-tagal mong nagtatrabaho sa industriyang ito, ngayon ka lang ata mabibigyan ng warning (memo, award, red love letter). Sana nag-absent o nagpaka-late na lang ako ng bonggang bongga. At least pag ganun, alam ko mali ko. At oo, nagpakakamote ako!

Ngayon ang dasal ko lang is for God to give me strength. Mahirap yatang kumbinsihin ang labinlimang tao na kaya namin tapusin ang buwan na maayos maski deep inside, parang winashing-machine yung puso ko sa sakit dahil naiinis ako (dahil nga hindi ako, hindi kami kamote).

Hay. At isa pang malalim na buntong-hininga. Makapagyosi na nga.

PS.

Wala po akong intensyon na humanap ng gulo o argumento. I am simply ranting about what I am going through and what I am feeling. Kung nakaka-relate kayo, I hope it's nice for you to know na dalawa tayo. Kung sa tingin nyo mali ako, I appreciate your opinion. Salamat rin sa pagbasa.

Monday, October 06, 2008

Conversations with John Part IX

It's 3PM and I haven't taken a bath yet. Asa room kami ni John, magka-embrace.

Nung maisipan ko nang maligo (finally)...

Me: Maliligo nako, I smell bad na.

John: It's okay.

Me: I will take a bath na kasi baho nako.

John: It's okay, maski taong grasa ka, love kita.

Awww... his sweetness will kill me. Imagine, i-compare ba naman ako sa taong grasa.

Sweet.

To Nicole with Love

September 27, 2008

My BFF Nicole,

It has been 11 days since your birthday. I know it’s really late pero just the same, Belated Happy, happy Birthday. Gaya nga ng sinabi ko sa blog mo, I too was expecting for something during your birthday. Kaso, nag-leave ka so I guess, in a way, nagkalimutan na, nawalan na ng momentum.

But anyways, enough for the excuses. Di bale, one of these days, Aux 3 ko si kamoteng JC para matapos nya na yung card mo. Surprise pa rin naman yun kasi you don’t know kung kelan naming ibibigay. Relax lang, sila Gladys, TM and Iel nga, months in the making yung card nila. Huwag ka na magtampo. Busy na kasi mga tao. Iba naman kasi talaga when we were still in Transition. Mas maluwag ang time kasi maraming time.

For the almost two years (tama ba?) na I’ve known you, I’ve come to really appreciate you. And I guess, sometimes, I see myself in you. Lalo na when it comes to your passion in keeping friendships alive. You and I have the same sentiments when it comes to friendship. Oo, pareho tayong loyal na friend. At pareho tayong umaasa (subconsciously) na ganun din ang pagtingin sa atin ng mga friends natin. Kaya nga maarte at madrama tayong dalawa. Ewan ko ba. E anong magagawa natin, big deal sa atin ang friendship.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that you and I are so alike when it comes to these things that I don’t have to explain myself. Isang salita pa lang, gets mo na. And that’s what I really like about you.

Tama si John, you are in a way, my bestfriend. Kas lagi kang andyan for me. The same way na I always try to be here for you. You are honest with me, the same way na I am with you. Well, sabi nga nila, sa sobrang layo ng tingin ko, I take for granted those who are right under my nose. But not anymore.

Thank you for the gift of friendship.

Thank you for being you (who’s just like me!). J

PS.

When I saw this Hello Kitty charm, I knew right away na it’s for you. Kasi may stars. Haha.

The Bridges of Madison County Рthis is the closest I can find na may Meryl Streep ̩clat

Laugheteria – kasi I know, we’ll be sharing more laughters. Haha.

XOXO,

Your BFF Paris

Sunday, October 05, 2008

I was Tagged!

I am tagging She-Anne, She', Jovee and Burn.

1. This game starts with 6 weird things about you.
2. People who got tagged need to write a blog entry of their own 6 weird things. (its fun promise:P)
3. They should as well state this rule clearly.
4. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.
5. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says “you are tagged” in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

1. I always wear my watch in my right wrist.

2. I always wear my bracelets in my left wrist. (Para alam ko kung asan ang kaliwa -- hence the term Kaliwacelet).

3. I treat dogs, my bags, slippers and shoes like human beings. I name my bags, slippers and crocs. And magkakapamilya sila. If they have the same design, magkapatid sila. If they're the same brand, magpinsan sila.
Example:
RL bags - lahat sila magkakamag-anak
Plaid designs - magkakapatid
RL logo designs - pinsan nung mga plaid

4. My feet are unusually small. Hindi siya proportional sa body weight ko. Kaya naman madali akong matalisod.

5. I can't sleep without my security blanket. Maski super gutay-gutay na sya, hindi pwedeng hindi sya naka-roll na yakap ko.

6. Sabi ni John, when I'm asleep, may sariling buhay paa ko. Kumakaskas sya sa kumot or paa nya habang tulog ako.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Conversations with John VIII

While channel surfing, we came across One Tree Hill.

Yung scene is nag-aaway yung mag-asawa (don't ask me their names, I'm not a fan) and they didn't realize na their kid was playing near the pool. Nung nalaglag yung ball sa pool, the kid tried to reach for it kaya nalaglag sya sa tubig.

At dahil hindi nga ako fan, nilipat ko yung channel.

John: Chi, ano nangyari? Nalunod ba?

Me: Hindi po. Dinura nya yung tubig na kinain nya.

John: Hmm... dinura nya yung tubig na kinain nya?

Huwat?

We are really a crazy couple.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Invitations and Commitment

INVITATIONS

Jai is always telling me how it's "nice to be invited" regardless whether you can attend the party or not.

And I now second the motion.

Maski alam natin na malaking ang chance na hindi ako makakapunta, sana inimbita nyo naman ako. Kasi sa pagkakaalam ko, inimbita ko kayo. Pero ang sabi nyo, wala kayong pera kaya hindi kayo pwede.

At wag mo sasabihin na wala kayong ginastos sa kung saan man kayo pumunta. Ano yun, sumabit kayo sa jeep at nag-123? Sumakay kayo sa magic carpet?

Wala?!

COMMITMENTS

Some people may have issues with commitments. Siguro dahil mahirap. Parang walang freedom. Mahirap sa diskarte.

Pero ang alam ko kasi, kapag magkaibigan, it's not considered a commitment. It's more of an understanding.

E siguro ako lang ang nag-isip na kaibigan ko kayo.

Malamang nga.

*****

Sa totoo lang, abot hanggang langit ang tampo ko. Actually, early this morning, tampo lang talaga. Habang papalalim na ang araw, parang naiinis at nabwibwisit na rin ako.

Wala naman kasing nagsabi sa kin na tratuhin ko kayo ng special at i-consider ko kayo na friends. It was my decision. At dapat, hindi ako nag-expect.

Dahil ang friendship, gaya ng love, hindi naipipilit.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Conversations WIth John Part VII

A few days ago, I asked John kung ano mas bagay na hati ng buhok ko. Sa side or sa gitna.

John: "E di kung nasaan yung puyo mo."

Me: "E nasan po ba?"

And so, for the past two days, hinahanap nya yung puyo ko.

On the third day...

Me: "Nakita mo na po?"

John: "Di ko makita e, wala ka yatang puyo."

Me: "Pwede ba yun?"

John: "Ay, eto pala (sabay turo sa noo ko)."

Hala. Para matahimik lang ako.

I therefore conclude na ang puyo ko ay ang noo ko.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Alive and Kicking...

I haven't been blogging for quite a while. Siguro dahil wala namang kaganapan sa buhay ko. Nothing much to rejoice about, except that buhay pa naman ako and that's that.

STILL ALIVE...

A month ago, I thought I'll never gonna make it. It was as if I underwent a surgery. Parang may inalis sa kin na sobrang importante and I just can't imagine living without it.

Hirap explain, pero sige, try ko.

How would you feel if somebody takes out your right hand (take note, hindi ka kaliwete ha). How would you write? Hmmm... mahirap diba? At first, iisipin mo, di mo kaya.

Or what if inalis yung nose mo, pero bomb-sniffing dog ka?

Hehe. Hirap diba?

That's what I thought and felt when they told me that I would no longer be handling the Transition Team.

I felt na it's over. Like I've nothing else to live for (in terms of office life, that is). I was overwhelmed with the fact na I've been with this team for the longest time and I am now losing them.

Akala ko nga that would be the end of it e.

I'm made of a sturdier stuff pala. Buti na lang.

AND KICKING...

I can say that I've adjusted well in Production. Less pressure. Less stress. Less work for me. Minsan lang, nakaka-miss yung ma-hagard with work. More than anything else, I truly miss the team I worked with.

May kanya-kanyang buhay na kami. True. But it's nice to know na regardless of our schedules, nothing and nobody can take away the special bond that we have. I'm happy knowing na they're my friends. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm happy with my production team. We ended August quite well. I hope in time, we'll kick everyone's butts and be number one!

*****

Grabe, it's September! I remember reading somewhere na Christmas starts in the Philippines during the BER months. Hmmm... malapit na ulit and pasko!

I'm supposed to be walking the aisle with the man I'm destined to be with this December. Due to certain events, we've decided to move the wedding date. Wala pang definite na date for now. We will get there, I know. I just hope it's soon.

June seems to be a good month for a wedding. Plus, June is our birth month. Hmmm... We'll see.

Basta for now, all I can say is malapit na ulit ang Christmas.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Monday, August 18, 2008

Conversations with John Part VI

On our way to Starbucks 6750 last night, nilambing ko si John at inakap ng mahigpit na mahigpit yung tummy nya. At sa sobrang higpit, nasaktan siya.

Sa sobrang sakit...

John: Ouch, p********!

Ma-an: That's bad had. Why are you myura me? (in Tagalog, Masama yan ha. Bakit mo ko minumura?)

Ahaha. Galing ko talaga.

Word of the day, myura.

Kabaligtaran ng myahal?

Myehehe. Corny.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Feeling Nanay si Taklesa

Feeling ko ngayon, para akong ina na iniwan ng mga anak nya...

Naks, drama. Pero it's true. For the past months na I was handling the Transition Team, maski ayaw ko man at forever idedeny ko, I felt like the mom in the team. Funny kasi I always think na wala akong motherly instinct.

Anyway, I feel a bit sad kasi parang wala na sila lahat. Ganun pala feeling ng mga nanay kapag umaalis na mga anak. Nakaka-relate ako ha.

At gaya ng ibang mga anak na alam mo namang andyan lang (marahil nag-aaral ng college or nagtatrabaho), iba rin talaga ang feeling.

Andyan lang sila pero iba.

Hala. Drama.

*****

Isa na siguro sa mga pangit na ugali ko is yung pagiging taklesa ko. Kung may tindang tact sa 7-11 or Mini Stop, malamang bumili na ko ng sampung kilo.

Lahat may opinyon sa lahat ng bagay pero hindi lahat ready marinig ang mga opinyon na ito. Kaya minsan, shumat-up ka na lang. Pumunta sa badmintunan at makipagtxtan sa mga kaibigan. O kaya, pumunta sa office at i-qa ang mga bangkero mo.

O kaya naman, mag-blog ka na lang.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

This too Shall Pass

Hindi na ako ang hahawak sa Transition Team. Ang team na kasama ko for the longest time. Just like that.

Iniisip ko na lang, may magandang rason, may importanteng dahilan at siguro, matinding pangangailangan. Di ko man ma-gets sa ngayon, sana in time, maintindihan ko.

Gustuhin ko man na magdrama, after a day or two, I know, lilipas rin 'to. Ang mga bayani nga, nakakalimutan e. Ang isang tulad ko pa kaya?

No matter how sad I am. No matter how devastated I feel. No matter how consumed I may become because of this issue... the world won't stop for me. Tuloy and ikot ng mundo. Tuloy ang pagkagutom ng mga bata sa Africa. Tuloy sa paghihikahos ang karamihan sa mga Pilipino. Tuloy ang pagtaas ng presyo ng langis at mga bilihin. Tuloy lang ang lahat. Tuloy ang laban.

Buhay pa naman ako. Yan ang importante. I can sleep soundly at night knowing na wala akong inagrabyado.

Wala lang 'to sa karera ng buhay.

At gaya ng laging kong sinasabi lalo na for the past few days, This too shall pass.

PS. Madrama rin pala talaga ako.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Conversations with John Part V

Warning:

Not advisable for those who has very active imagination. After reading this, you may not look at John the same way again. You've been warned!

On our way home the other day...

John: Chi, I think I wore your panty by mistake. Ang sikip kasi ng brief ko.

Me: (with murderous look on my face) Ha?

John: (after realizing na mapapatay ko sya) Joke lang po.

When we were finally home, John took off his pants.

Lo and behold, and tatak ng supposedly "brief" nya is Avon.

Me: (shouting) Chi! May brief ka ba na Avon ang tatak?!

John: (sheepishly but laughing so hard) Talaga? Di nga. Pahiram lang e. Damot mo naman.

Waaah. I knew it. May tendency si John na maging bakla. It starts out with the panties you know.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Conversations with John Part IV

One afternoon on our way to the office, we heard Joey Pepe Smith's radio ad for Red Horse beer.

Me: Chi, si Joey Pepe Smith yun?

John: Oo no. Magaling yan mag-english, american accent pa.

Me: Ah, talaga.

John: Oo. Pwede nga yang mag-trabaho sa call center e.

(Toink. )

Monday, June 16, 2008

Happy Birthday to Me! Part II

My birthday last year was a blast. John proposed to me in Baguio. It was one of the happiest days of my life.

I thought that my birthday this year would just be normal. Konting handaan sa office then dinner with John and some of my friends. This was what I was thinking. I was never a fan of my birthday. Ever since, my birthday is nothing but an ordinary day. Nothing festive and noisy. It’s just a quiet day with my cellphone beeping every once in a while for the birthday messages from friends and relatives who re

membered.

June 13, 2008

We had dinner with Jovee and Burn at Friday's. Pre-birthday celebration ko. I'm super happy kasi the last time I saw Burn was last year pa. Yung mga pagkakataon na ganito, I truly treasure kasi very seldom lang mangyari.

Mas magaan na rin sa loob ko sa mga bagay-bagay. It would only complicate things if I try to come up with the reason. Basta, thankful na lang ako at hoepful. Thankful dahil finally, medyo nakumpleto kami at I was with two of my best guy friends and hopeful na sana, maulit pa ito.

June 14, 2008.

I would definitely remember this date.

My team made sure na I felt special and loved. They came up with a presentation. First was yung mini-skit and dance number nila.Nakakatuwa. Gayang-gaya nila ko and si John. Ganun pala talaga yun no. Kapag mahal mo and isang tao, lahat na rin ng mga mahal nya, nagiging mahal mo at special sayo. Kaya naman extra si John sa powerpoint presentation nila.

I feel so blessed.

I am lucky to have my friends and John.

I think somehow, I did something right. Why else would God give me such great blessings and gifts?

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Conversations with John Part III

Backgrounder: John's friend had to buy some car stuffs at Banawe and spent an X amount of money.

Me: To think na Banawe na yun a. Mahal pa rin.

John: Why, do you know where Banawe is?

Me: Of course! I used to be from La Loma!

John: Really? La Loma? Kaya pala you're mataba.

(Trying to get even for the Beauty and the Beast thing?)

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Conversations with John

While watching PBB (ahaha, o sige na, while we were channel surfing)...

Beauty ang name nung isa sa mga housemates.

John: Chi, beauty daw.

Me: Yes, that's me. I'm beauty.

John: Okay, okay. If you're beauty, who am I?

Me: Beast. We're Beauty and the Beast.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Sick and Tired but still Happy

SICK…

I’ve been sick since last week.

Well, I tried weathering it through last week. I had cough, colds and finally fever. And this week, I have Urinary Tract Infection. I know, too much Coke. And to think that I’ve been drinking more water lately as compared to when I’m not sick, ha! UTI! After 2-3 glasses of water a day compared to a droplet or two like two-three weeks ago? Amazing.

AND TIRED…

Don’t people ever get tired celebrating other people’s misery and unhappiness? I’m not trying to be self-righteous or what but one thing I can say about myself is I know when to stop.

*****

There was an episode in the office two weeks ago that may have contributed to me not feeling too well and eventually, sick.

They can all rant for all they want. I know I’m doing my job and I’m not doing anything wrong. As long as I know that I’m not hurting anyone in any form, then I can sleep soundly at night.

*****

I’d be Happy If…

… I have a fatter paycheck. Fatter than my non-existent waistline! Hah!

… I can get a copy of Shadow Dance. I’ve been to Powerbooks and National Bookstore for the past few weeks, it’s always sold out. This better be worth the wait.

... I can have another massage at Mandala Spa. I’ve been getting the regular massage from our regular spa every two weeks. This time, I want something special.

… I can celebrate my birthday (and John’s) differently. How different, no idea.

… I can rekindle old friendships with some HS friends. Four years. And to lose contact for this long is just a waste. I’m hoping that the gap isn’t too wide to bridge. We may have different sets of priorities now but heck, we were all friends for 4 freaking years! It won’t be too hard to look for something to look back and laugh at.

… Chris Brown would visit Manila. I am now officially hooked on him. OA na kung OA pero he’s now officially my crush. You can only imagine how many times I watch his videos in youtube.

… I can have an iced-cold Coke right this minute. At dahil may sakit ako, ilang araw na akong hindi nakakainom ng Coke.

And last but not the least,

I’d be deliriously Happy…

… I can finally resume planning the wedding of my dreams.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

On Broken Hearts...

How can a love that lasted for 6 years end just like that? How can the person you love the most just cheat on you just like that? If I knew the answers, I’d definitely tell you.

I know you’ve been asking yourself the same questions for the past few days.

All I know is that it sucks big time. Time becomes irrelevant. Whether you’ve been together for 6 years or 6 months, it’s the same $hit.

I hope God guides you well. This won’t be easy, that’s for sure. You’ve been through a lot and I know you’ll weather this out.

It’s highly unlikely that you read this. But just the same, here’s what I have for you.

Heal. Gaya nga ng sinabi ko sayo, the wound may be too painful for now. Just deal with the pain and allow yourself to heal. It’ easier said than done. It’s a process. You are not pressured to come up with a decision now. Otherwise, the decision will most likely be solely based on your emotions. Hayaan mong matuyo yung sugat. After that, that’s when you decide if you’d undergo the surgery, have a tattoo or just let it be.

Love is good. And it should make you feel good. If you are in pain, then maybe it’s not love at all.

He may have loved you. Maybe he still loves you. But I assure you, it’s not the good-kind-of-love which he may have had 6 or 5 years ago. If it were the same love, do you think he’ll have an affair in the first place?

Help yourself. If you think forgetting him would help you move on, then help yourself. Checking his Friendster account every minute won’t help you at all. Listening to your theme song would just most likely remind you of him. I thought you’re trying to forget him?

Your family will always love and accept you no matter what. You may have taken them for granted when you were so in-love. I’m sure it wasn’t intentional. You were just too in-love. And now’s the time to thank them for always being there for you.

Last, but not the least… your friends will always be here for you. Contrary to what he was telling you all this time, your friends will never leave you. Enough said.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Plans, plans...

John and I are planning to go back to the beach house with mama and perhaps, some members of the clan. Makapagbakasyon naman siya.

We can stay at the beach house siguro for two days. Before going back to Manila, we can visit Zoobic.

It has been a while since I went out of town with my family.

When I was growing up, I always spend my summer vacation in the province. Yup, probinsyana ako and I’m proud of it.

Naka-miss nga e. Those were the days.

*****

Civil Wedding? The suggestion has merits. I am googling the requirements as I am writing this. Okay naman. While waiting for the church wedding, pwede naman na magpa-civil wedding muna kami.

*****

I'm at a point where I am seriously considering things that I wouldn’t have thought of doing a month or week ago.

I am starting to explore what’s outside of my comfort zone.

I wouldn't want to go through life with a lot of what-ifs.

E baka naman kasi may magandang naghihintay na kinabukasan sa iba diba?

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Vacation Mode

Finally! Nakapag-out of town trip na kami ni John.

We went to Monetemar over the weekend. Super saya. We were with my HS besties. Super bitin pero just the same, I had so much fun.

Next plan namin is makabalik sana sa Bora. Sana... I am keeping my fingers crossed.

*****

Super bitin ang bakasyon namin. I'm still in vacation mode. Parang ayoko na ngang bumalik sa office e. Heheh.

The team can manage on their own naman yata kaya carry lang.

*****

As I'm writing thism pinapanood ko si Piolo and Juday.

Mukhang maganda sa Sagada. Kung mabubuhay lang sana ko sa ganung environment.

Hanggang pictures at TV na lang siguro ako.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Not this December...

It’s not gonna happen in December.

I've been repeating this phrase to myself for the past few weeks thinking that by doing so, I would have better chances of accepting it.

No matter how valid the reason may be, I am still having a hard time grasping the realization that I won’t be walking down the aisle in December.

I've been putting this off since I found out about it.

The moment John told me that we may have to push our wedding date, I just had to see my best friends. I had hard time breathing and I know, seeing them and talking to them would somehow alleviate the pain I am feeling.

I am still reeling from the shock.

I am still trying to get over the gut-wrenching pain.

I am still trying to validate the reason.

I am still trying to deal with it.

I am trying.

And God knows I am failing.

*****

This doesn't make me love John any less. I love him. What gets me going is the fact that regardless, whether it's not going to be this December, it's bound to happen.

I will walk down the aisle towards the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.

It may not be in December.

But it's going to be soon.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

If Only...

IF ONLY

When you work in a call center and you're a customer service representative, you do your best to deliver on what the customer wants. You give excellent customer service. That's the reason for your being. Kasama na rin dito yung taking ownership of the situation. Maski pa ang linya ni customer is "the person I spoke with told me...". You don't jump in and say na it was that person's mistake and you've nothing to do with it.

Bottomline is, it's your call now. Therefore, you deal with it. Undo what can be undone and rectify the mistakes made by the previous representative.

It just irritates me when people start getting historical and put the blame on others.

Mga taong MEMA. MEMAsabi and MEMASISI lang.

It would always be a viscious cycle.

If only you can do it right the first time around. Walang maninisi at walang masisisi.

If only.

*****

Marso na at wala pang solid na nagyayari sa wedding preparations namin ni John.

I'm not sure kung dapat akong maging kalmado knowing na we are planning to get the package at the Manor which would take care of almost everything.

Hay. Procastinating is not good.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Loyalty and Summer

My weekend was uneventful. We just stayed at home. John is still feeling under the weather pero he eats a lot na ulit which means na he is definetely better.

ON LOYALTY

May isang incident sa office which got me thinking. Bottomline is, was I asking for too much? At gaya nga ng sinabi ni Karen, parang tinanong ko nga ba silang tumalon sa bangin?

Hmm... basta ang masasabi ko lang is loyalty, just like respect, is earned. It can't be bought nor demanded.

Buti pa yung loyalty card sa Artwork, madaling ma-earn. Worth Php 2000 lang.

SUMMER NA

I think it's officially summer. Super init na kasi and mahal na araw na. For me kasi, yan ang mga senyales na bakasyon na. Unfortunately though, may pasok kami this Holy Week. Akala ko pa naman makakapagpahinga ako ng kahit konti. Yung pahingang asa isang lugar para makapag-unwind at hindi yung pahingang napilitan ka dahil inaapoy ka na sa lagnat at nagdodoble na paningin mo sa hilo.

Hay, the not-so-good side of working in a call center.

Summer na. Asa akin pa rin yung mga Christmas gifts ko for Karen and Burn. Kelan ko kaya sila makikita (e kelan nga ba?). E baka naman abutin na naman hanggang next Christmas.

I am looking forward to going either in Boracay, Panglao or Dumaguete this April. Kelangan matuloy. Hindi pwedeng hindi. I need to feel the sand. I need to be in the beach. I need to rest and relax. Tao rin naman ako na napapagod at kailangang magpahinga.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Conversations With John (Episode 1 03.14.08)

Para may idea kayo kung pano ang conversations between John and me:

Me: Chi, sa 30th birthday ko, bili mo ko ng ring ha. Kas I will be sad kasi I’m old na. 30 is old.

John: Kelan ba 30th birthday mo?

Me: Next next year.

John: E diba 1979 ka?

(Me counting, 79, 80, 81, 82… blah blah.)

John: E you’re 28 na.

Me: Kaya nga po, next year na pala.

(John hampas unan si Ma-an)

At eto pa...

John: Gusto mo ng ring na malaki? Sige, civil wedding tayo, bigyan kita ng 1 carat na ring. Kung gusto mo 2 carats pa. Magsawa ka sa carat mo.

Me: Gawin mong 3 carats, we have a deal!

(John hampas unan si Ma-an)

John: Hindi mo na pinahalagahan ang kasal. Mukha kang carat!

At natawa naman ako sa sarili ko... Hahaha.