Overwhelmed

Slept with a severe headache. Woke up with a severe headache pa rin. It was a tiring and very overwhelming day. Mama's cardiologist wants her to have an angiogram. Prior to her breast surgery last year, we had a hard time securing her cardio clearance because apparently, she has hypertensive cardiovascular disease and coronary artery disease and the doctor was insisting for her to have an angiogram. 

So that was Part 1 of the ordeal. Second visit was with a rheumatologist. Another bomb dropped, Mama has osteoporosis. And she 4 - 5 tablets to take daily. 

Overwhelming. While I know that Mama is getting old and that naturally, she will be prone to different health conditions, it still feels different to confront reality and be told that she has medical conditions that require attention. 

This is yet another hurdle that we need to conquer. Jesus, we lift everything to you. 

Return of the Maldits

Over dinner, I was telling my husband na I want to start another blog and was soliciting for a suggestion of blog titles. He goes, e di yung Buhay Maldita na lang ulit. Nasan na yun? Yung sa Multiply mo dati? Told him that Multiply is long gone with my blog and pictures. 

So I tried creating a new account with John's favorite nickname for me - Ranting Maldita only to find out that that name is already taken. Refusing to give up, tried logging with some of my passwords and lo and behold, one of them actually worked!

So here I am resurrecting an old blog -

It has really been a while! My last entry was in 2009. It has been 6 years and I'd love to write how it has been, what kept me busy and how I am doing now. A lot has happened for the past 6 years. So much catching up to do! For starters, I am now married and a petmom to Princess, a black makulit furbaby who just turned 5 last February. 

Anyway, that's it for now. Will definitely be back for more chika and kwento. 

'Laters!

To Fall or Not To Fall

It's hard to fall for someone who is not even remotely in the same page with you. For all we know, you are reading a romantic novel, while he's into demons and stuff.

But then again, it's not as if you can choose who to like or love. It's one of the wonders of love. It's not dictated, not scripted and definitely not coerced. Though it would make more sense to fall for someone who also loves you, it just doesn't happen that way. Love is complicated and it ain't easy as that. It involves a lot of risks and fate.

Risks.
The worst part of crushing on someone is that when that someone is with someone else. Or if that someone is not even remotely aware that you exist. Or if that someone can only offer you friendship. The possibilities are endless but it all boils down to unrequited love.

Unrequited love by far, is the worst. If you can stay steer away from it, then do so.

Fate.
What I love about love is that it can never be imposed. Sometimes, you just know. You crush on someone, go out on a few dates, get to know each other well, fall in love together with each other... the works.

And that's why even if Love has pained me too much, I'd still say
it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all
and it is better to have loved and let go than to have loved and held on to the wrong one all this time.

Ako rin, ako rin!

An entry I found in Jovee's site. Tapos kay Burn pala nanggaling.

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.