~ Buhay Maldita ~

You don't have to like me to read this. More so you don't need to read this to like me.

viernes, noviembre 06, 2009

To Fall or Not To Fall

It's hard to fall for someone who is not even remotely in the same page with you. For all we know, you are reading a romantic novel, while he's into demons and stuff.

But then again, it's not as if you can choose who to like or love. It's one of the wonders of love. It's not dictated, not scripted and definitely not coerced. Though it would make more sense to fall for someone who also loves you, it just doesn't happen that way. Love is complicated and it ain't easy as that. It involves a lot of risks and fate.

The worst part of crushing on someone is that when that someone is with someone else. Or if that someone is not even remotely aware that you exist. Or if that someone can only offer you friendship. The possibilities are endless but it all boils down to unrequited love.

Unrequited love by far, is the worst. If you can stay steer away from it, then do so.

What I love about love is that it can never be imposed. Sometimes, you just know. You crush on someone, go out on a few dates, get to know each other well, fall in love together with each other... the works.

And that's why even if Love has pained me too much, I'd still say
it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all
and it is better to have loved and let go than to have loved and held on to the wrong one all this time.

sábado, marzo 28, 2009

Ako rin, ako rin!

An entry I found in Jovee's site. Tapos kay Burn pala nanggaling.

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

domingo, marzo 22, 2009

Getting Over Someone...

A good friend asked me how she’d know if she’s finally over someone.

I’m no expert in this subject but I did my best in explaining to her how it was when I was in that situation.

The signs are not accurate. Sometimes, you wake up not thinking about the person but that doesn’t guarantee na you are finally over the person. After all, 1 day is irrelevant to the next days, weeks, months and years to come. So lesson number one is to NOT ask for a sign.

It’s hard. It’s hard trying to recall how I came to this point from where I was when my heart was broken. It took me a while, that I remember. I was always walking in a daze and I was in my own world. I was trying to accept the fact that my one true love broke my heart.

Things change. Before I met him, I was my own person. I did things on my own and I didn’t have to ask someone (or anyone for that matter) if they like what I’m doing or wearing. I wore my hair short even if it made me look like siopao. I drink and smoke with friends without having to get someone’s permission. I own my decisions.

When I met him, things started to change. I was more conscious and cautious with what I was doing. Hindi naman dumating sa point na he has the final say. It’s just that it’s hard to be the drinker and smoker that I was considering na wala syang bisyo. Though I’m not a heels person, mas lagi akong nagsusuot ng flats to compliment his height (kasi he’s a bit short, hehe). You know, certain things like that. Until it reached the point na I was checking with him every now and then kung ano magiging decisions ko. I do not blame him. Kasi it was my decision to check with him. Hindi nya ako pinilit. I just felt that during that time, I was supposed to do that dahil “kami”.

Allow yourself time to figure out what you really want to be. Do you want to be the same person before you met him? Or do you want to stay the way you are (after being with him)? Regardless of your decision, you have to realize that it’s just you now. You do not answer to anyone (most of all, him) but yourself.

Time is all you need. It can and may not happen overnight. It might take a while. Just be patient. There are no due dates. Take all the time that you need. Let the scars heal. They may not be visible physically but you have to make sure that the ones that we do not actually see have already healed.

Lastly, it doesn’t matter if he is or he is not over you. He doesn’t dictate when you should start trying to get over him. He has his own life to live and hindi ka na kasama dun. So start living your own life too.

Getting over someone you used to love is no easy feat. You loved the person at his best and worst. You accepted the person as he is. The mark he left in your life will always be indelible. It may not be as noticeable as it was the first time, but it’s permanent. Though they may have hurt us and broken our hearts, that doesn’t change the fact that they loved us too. They may not love us the same way when the relationship was just starting out. Things change. It’s not our fault that they no longer love us the way we love them. And if this happens, it happens for a reason. It may not make sense now but in time, you will realize that it’s better that things ended that way.

martes, marzo 10, 2009

Floaters and Francis M.

floating - \[floh-ting] –adjective
1. being buoyed up on water or other liquid.
2. having little or no attachment to a particular place; moving from one place to another: a floating work force.
3. Pathology. away from its proper position, esp. in a downward direction: a floating kidney.
4. not fixed or settled in a definite place or state: a floating population.
5. Finance.
a. in circulation or use, or not permanently invested, as capital.
b. composed of sums due within a short time: a floating debt.
6. Machinery.
a. having a soft suspension greatly reducing vibrations between the suspended part and its support.
b. working smoothly.


It's been a while since I last posted something here. And yes, tama ka. Floating.

Dahil summer na, masaya na magtampisaw sa dagat (o sa pool, o sa malaking-malaking timba) at mag-floating. Nakakaaliw ang mag-float lalo na kung marunong ka ring lumangoy. Kasi dumadating yung point na habang naka-float ka, parang nakakasawa rin na nakatengga ka ng matagal. At kung nasa dagat ka, e baka sa kung saang lugar ka makarating. Enjoy, nakakaaliw, masaya... kung hindi forever na lulutang lutang ka.

E pano kung sa work ka mag-floating? Yung tipong walang kasiguruhan, yung di mo alam kung ano mangyayari sa pagpasok mo sa opisina? Yung tipong wala ka pang isang oras sa opisina e pinapauwi ka na dahil floating ka daw muna. Basta mag-float-float ka na lang daw muna.

Naku... e di pa naman ako marunong lumangoy. Hanggang bubbles lang kaya ko e.



Just like what I've been telling my friends, ngayon pa lang nag-sink in sa akin na Francis Magalona is gone. It's sad. I've always thought na he's good. He has sense when he raps. Hindi yung tipong clap your hands everybody lang ang alam sabihin. Bilib nga ko sa kanya e. Sayang.


There is hope. I refuse to believe na wala. Kasi mahirap mabuhay na wala kang pinaniniwalaan. Things would be better. It may not happen over night pero in God's time, things will get better.

Ang buhay parang gulong. Minsan nasusunog. Hehe. Kidding aside, wala sigurong bright side for now pero magkakaron din yan, promise.

domingo, enero 25, 2009

For Sale: Pre-loved Coach stripes bag

If you have doubts, please do not bid. All sales are deemed final.
I am selling these items because I rarely use them.

I am selling this bag for Php1500.


  • All pre owned items are sold AS IS.
  • I strictly follow a NO RETURN, NO EXCHANGE Policy.
  • Please ask all questions regarding the item BEFORE bidding. Email me if you wish to get more pictures of the item you're interested in.
  • You may contact me at 0917-3766237 for faster communication.
  • All haggling will be ignored.
  • Newbies or for those with zero feedbacks are requested to EMAIL their valid contact and shipping info first BEFORE placing their bids.
    I will cancel bids without prior notice if this particular condition is not met.


    I accept the following payments only:

    § GCASH

    § Chinabank deposit

    § UCPB deposit

    § COD - meet up point is Makati (please take note that for COD, I will add Php100 for the handling fee to cover for the gas and parking fee)

    Payments are expected within 3 to 5 days. Prompt payments are highly appreciated.


    I can ship items via AIR21.

    Rate for the 1st kilo is as follows:
    METRO MANILA - 100
    PROVINCIAL - 120

    Items will be shipped within 24 to 48 hours of receiving your payment. If a tracking number is sent out to you, please contact AIR21 regarding your package at 854 2100 should it fail to reach you in 2 to 3 days time. Cut off time for payment is 10 AM. Any items paid after the said time will be shipped the following working day.


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