Mixed Emotions...

It's my last week in Recruitment.
I'm feeling a lil' sad and happy at the same time.
Sad, cos I'm gonna be having a 2-11am shift. Back to my vampira days.
Happy, cos I'm gonna see my friends, plus I might get the chance to see my crush.

I did make a request though, sana lang, payagan ako.


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Tj, a good friend will be leaving for the States on Saturday.
I'm happy and a lil' bit of scared for her.
Happy, cos she's gonna be fulfilling a dream of hers.
Scared, cos it's gonna be a whole new world for her.

Tatlo na lang kami na original na Bangags. Four, kasama si Karen. But she doesn't hang out that much with us.

Waah. Baka apihin ako ni Burn and Jovee.


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I'm halfway done with my Christmas shopping.
I'm happy and a lil' bit sad.
Happy, cos I know I'm gonna be making those on my list happy.
Sad kasi ubos na pera ko.

Hay. Hayaan na nga natin, Christmas is all about giving and sharing naman.


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I forgot to file for a leave for Christmas and New Year's Eve.
Ang galing diba?
Working on Christmas and New Year's Eve.
Ang saya.
Ishtewpid me.

Nununinunu...

I was blog hopping and I got this from Eric.

NAME THE FIRST 20 PEOPLE OFF THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD...
1) Chi
2) She'-anne
3) She'
4) Jovee
5) Tj
6) Burn
7) Karen
8) Gladz
9) Marcy
10) Ivan
11) Verna
12) JB
13) Ching
14) Joan
15) Papa Lei
16) Melvyn
17) Mae
18) Louise
19) Mitch
20) Nadya


Don't CHEAT by going back and changing the person you wrote down!


How did you meet 13?
Ching - We were classmates in UST.


What would you do if you had never met 5?
TJ - Then I would have missed having one great friend. Bangags would have been incomplete.


Have you ever liked 3?
She' - Of course! She won't be one of my best pals.


Would 4 and 11 make a good couple?
Jovee and Verna - I don't think so. I give Verna credit for her taste. Lol. Joke lang Juvay!


Would 1 and 7 make a lovely couple?
Chi and Karen - Hell no! Magagalit ako and si Jun, diba Karen?


On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
Joan - Syempre 10!


What language does 10 speak?
Ivan - Gay language.


Who is 8 going out with?
Gladz - Wala. Masyadong pihikan e.


Is 9 someone you would date?
Marcy - Why not!


When was the last time you talked to 18?
Louise - Talk as in over the phone, tagal na. Siguro 4 years ago. Talk sa chat, siguro last August.


What is 1's favorite band?
Chi - Sobrang dami e. Siguro Wolfgang.


Does 2 have any siblings?
She'-anne - Yup. Ate Mary, Quing and Lance.


Would you ever date 7?
Karen - Di kame talo. Pareho kaming kikay.


Is 15 single?
Papa Lei - Nope. Pero kung umasta kala mo single. Di naman alam ni Rona.


What is 4's middle name?
Jovee - Hmm... Kapal muks?


What is 2's fantasy?
She'-anne - Live happily ever after with her Prince Charming and Little Princess.


Would 7 and 19 make a good couple?
Karen and Mitch - I don't think so.


Whats 16's favorite color?
Melvyn - As far as I remember, blue.


What school does 6 go to?
Burn - PUP


Where does 9 live?
Marcy - St. Andrew's Farm (San Andres Bukid, that's in Makati, right?)


Would you make out with 1?
Chi - Oo naman. Kaya nga kami diba?


Are 5 and 6 best friends?
Tj and Burn - In a way, we're all close friends.


What is your history with 20?
Nadya - She was my TL.


Do you like 17?
Mae - Yup, otherwise she wouldn't be here in the list.

It's Never Off the Table

We broke up ages ago.
You're living your life.
And I'm enjoying mine.

And yet,
I still can't help but think of you
at times.

I wonder if you're doing good.
I wonder if you're okay.
I wonder if she's making you happy.

It's crazy,
I know.

I shouldn't be feeling this way,
I know.

When it comes to you,
I just don't know.

You and me...
It's never off the table.

As much as we'd like it to be...

Over the Weekend...

I had coffee with one of my bestfriends yesterday. Good to know that finally, she IS getting there. Happiness is just a couple of streets away. Mabuti naman. After all the bumpy roads, the deviations and a couple of intersections, she's on her way.

When it comes to LOVE, you really can't fake it. You can't take it away or let alone make it go away. It's just there. Whether you are aware of it, whether you try so hard to ignore it, it's just there.

6 years. That's quite a feat. Considering all the things that you guys went through. You've been through hell and a lot more. And yet, you guys are still here. If HE isn't THE ONE, ewan ko na lang.

The feeling's so good. You've lived your life to the fullest. You've travelled a long way. You've been to places. You've experienced life. And I know, nothing beats the feeling of being home... at last.

Work things out. It is more than worth the shot.



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After almost 4 months of having a perfect attendance, absent ako today. I just woke up with this terrible headache. I prolly need a new pair of glasses.


During the Annual Physical Check Up.

Doc: Basahin mo nga hanggang dito.
Me: Doc, di ko na mabasa e.
Doc: E dito?
Me: Doc naman, yung kanina di ko na mabasa, e mas malaki pa yung letters nila. Yan pa kaya? Kaya nga po ko nakasalamin e.
Doc: Sabi ko nga.

Oo nga naman...



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Where can we find cheap electric guitars? Those at the malls are priced 15 thousand and up. Budget ko is 5 thousand lang. E baka yung strings lang ang mabili ko. Lol.


Ang boypren ko naman kasi. Sumali sa Battle of the Bands as a guitarist, e wala naman syang gitara.

Ang galing diba?

Okay Lang Ako...

I applied for a Quality Coach post more than a month ago. I found out the results just now. I didn't make it. I didn't get the position.


I tell myself na it's okay. But no, it's not okay. It's one opportunity wasted.


A part of me's sad. That's normal naman diba? Buti na lang I didn't expect that much.


If it's for you, God helps you achieve it. Otherwise, He'd teach you a few lessons here and there, and gives you what you truly deserve.


I guess this position isn't for me. God has something better for me. I just know it. I can feel it.


By this time, I should be suicidal and freakingly depressed. But no, I am still sane and I'm cool. Thanks to my new baby, my new N90.


I can't have it all. I know.


For now, it's my new baby, my new N90.


Next time, it's the promotion.




This can't bring me down. This won't bring me down.


Napoleon Bonaparte and his troops can't bring me down, let alone this one.


Believe me, it would take more than Armageddon and Independence Day combined to bring someone like me down.

Gushing...

Went out with some friends last night, after 48 years, natuloy din kami.

Sad nga e. Siguro after this, di na kami kumpleto.

One's leaving for the States.

We'll miss you Teej.



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I am so gushing over my new crush... as in! Pinirata ko na nga yung pic nya sa Friendster nya e! Then everyday, I check his profile. O, diba? The makings of a stalker. Lol.

When I saw him, he reminded me so much of my ex. Kaso better version lang talaga.

It's cool with John, gaga daw ako.

I know!

Chi...

As I watch you sleep, I can't help but be overwhelmed with the love that I feel for you. I may be crazy at times and I may have a funny way of showing it to to you, but believe me, I love you. I really do.

I am so lucky as God led me to you.

I could not ask for more.

You're the first person I'd want to see when I wake up in the morning.

And the last I'd like to see before I sleep at night.

You are the person that I'd want to spend the rest of my life with.

Not everyone's lucky as I am, I know. That's why I am so thankful. I truly appreciate the things that you're doing for me.

I love the way you hold my hands, especialy whenever I'm scared.

I love the way you embrace me and the way you wipe away my tears whenever we visit Makati
Med. I am scared of injections, but with you around, I know I'd be okay.

I love the way you make me smile whenever I feel that everything's not goin' my way.

I love it when you make sure that I've taken my breakfast (lunch, dinner or whatever) na.

I love it when you make sure that I have my Coke.

I love the way you make me feel whenever I am with you.


These are just some of the reasons why I love you so much.


I am bursting with happiness.

I am beaming with pride.

I so love you...

I Miss...

these girls and my short hair.

Will I be able to pull it off again? With my chubby face and all? Hmm... Contemplation...

Trippin' Down Memory Lane

I was browsing over my Yahoo briefcase and I came across these pics.

Kakatuwa lang.

Dinner with friends @ Super Bowl. And I thought na it's China Bowl. Lol.

Somewhere in Greenbelt...

Our first trip to Puerto Gallera.

Our first pic in Zambales (na kami na). Di naman mahangin diba?

Pa-cute sa pad.

This weekend....

Di ko pa napapanood Harry Potter. Hopefully, tomorrow, John finds the time.

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I am dying to get a haircut. When I find the time, I'd go to the salon. Hay. I am so looking forward to that day.

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Ang pangit pala ng feeling pag walang pumapansin sayo. I've been wanting to go out with some friends for the longest time. Everytime I text them, walang reply. Swerte na if they text back after a day or two. Minsan nga, nakalimutan ko na yung tinext ko sa kanila. Am I that invisible?

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I am turning to a Koreanovela addict! Cheesy? I know! While surfing the channels kanina, I came across Stained Glass at channel 2. Interesting story. I'd probably look for a DVD or CD of that. Lol!

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35 days na lang before Christmas. Time flies talaga. Haven't started my Christmas shopping
yet. Eh pano ba naman, wala pa pera. Hehehe :) If it's any consolation, the list's done though.

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Alumni Homecoming daw namin on December 3. I'd really like to attend kaso we have a Jobfair at Malacanang the next day. I need to think this over.

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Something great about next week. N90. Need I say more? :)

This post's long overdue...

I've been meaning to post something here but for some reason, I just can't find the time. Since I'm still with the Recruitment, I have a 9-5 schedule. It's been so erratic. We've got lots of applicants and for the past few weeks, a 6th day OT is necessary.

I am enjoying the job. I love interviewing the applicants. They do come up with the weirdest answers sometimes.

Me: Granting you could assume someone's role, who'd you rather be, the Pope or the President?
Applicant: (With so much conviction) Panfilo Lacson!


Now where did that come from?


Another one...

Applicant: Ma'am, magaling po akong mangulekta.
Me: I'm sorry, you have to speak in English.
Applicant: Po? Bakit po English?
Me: You're gonne be servicing international clients so you have to speak in English.
Applicant: Ganun po ba? Ma'am I am a good collector. I am a collector of Meralco and Nawasa bepor.

Ano daw?


Nakakaaliw minsan. Minsan naman, nakaka-drain.


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I saw the bag of my dreams at Greenhills kanina. 5 thousand daw. Nagbigay ng last price, 4500 na lang daw.
When I saw it, my heart literally skipped a beat. Kaso it's not the color I want.
I am seriously thinking it over.

Advices...

I take pride with the fact that when it comes to advices, I can give out sound ones.
Here are some that I remember. Siguro dahil I can relate to them. Bakit ganun, it's always easier being said than done? I find it easier to give out advices pero when it comes to helping myself, I am no good.


"He's still with you because you refuse to let go of his hands. But what if all this time, he is holding someone else's?"

"Pagtyagaan mo na lang muna. In time, everything will fall into place."

"God has his plans for you. Maligaw ka man ng konti, you'd still end up in that road that He has paved for you. Consider this a diversion, after nyan, you'll find your way to The One."

"Patience, my dear. Patience."

"It is always your choice. You end up happy. You end up being miserable. It will always be your choice."

"Your Mama has always been there for you for the longest time. She's made a lot of sacrifices just for you. It's high time you go through one for her."

"You are missing out on a lot of things. How can you possibly say na yan na yun e hindi ka pa nga nag-eexplore."



Advices. Advices. Someday. I will heed mine.

Left Behind...?

Why do I get the feeling that so much has happened when I'm still stuck here with where I was since the start?

Is it because I am being left behind? I hope not.

John's on the verge of getting tired of listening to my rants. I did mention in a previous post that three of my friends were recently promoted. Honestly, they truly deserve it. It's just that I can't get over it. I'm happy for them. But I'm not for myself. I hope it doesn't make me less of a friend if I am feeling this way.

Good thing I am in Recruitment. My attention's being diverted. For now.


Jesus, Mary, Joseph... enlighten me, please.

LSS...

The first time I heard this song was when I was watching One Tree Hill. I liked it since then. I searched for the lyrics, it's so sad pala.


The First Cut is the Deepest

I would've given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me, he's worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest Baby I know
the first cut is the deepest
but when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me he's worst
The first cut is the deepest baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again



It's so hard to break up with someone you've grown to love so much...

Past Forward...

For the longest time, I had been searching for the VCD of Full House. Finally, a friend from the office lent me her copy. Had it been na I wasn't in Recruitment, natapos ko siguro yung buong series in one sitting. But No, since I was very busy, I started off with the first 5 CD's then last Friday, tinapos ko na siya.
It didn't disappoint me naman. Okay naman siya. Actually, I kinda liked it. For one, it's not the usual love triangle story... more of love square story. Hahaha. Shempre, I found myself sniffing during some parts of the story. Sabi ko naman kasi sa inyo e, mababaw luha ko. Sana lang, yung main character na guy, kasing cute nila Dao Ming Si and the rest of F4. LOL.


I am still with Recruitments. We had another restday OT last Saturday. Good thing wala ganong applicants kaya we were sent home an hour earlier. Monday, I am not required to report for work. Sa Tuesday na lang daw ako.


Finally, 3 of my friends were promoted. I am so happy for them. Pero honestly speaking, medyo nalungkot din ako ng konti. It only reminded me na ako, andito pa rin where I started. Sabi ni John, I shouldn't be thinking that way, kasi naman daw, it wasn't my fault na I got sick, thus the
corrective action. Ako naman daw kasi, once pa lang nag-apply and kaka-apply ko pa lang. I should be patient daw. I hope it doesn't make me less of a friend if I am feeling this way, afterall, tao lang ako and emotional at that. I am just being honest here.


Hay, gaya nga ng advice ko kay JB, God has his plans for us. We may not realize them now, but we will in His time. He'll make sure that we reach our destination whether we go by the shortcut or long way.


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Happy Halloween everyone!

Past Forward...

The past few weeks had been very, very hectic.



Two weeks ago...

I literally had my whole week full. I rendered a 6th day OT on Saturday. We had a Jobfair and the HR people needed reinforcements. The shift ended at around 6pm. After nun, we went to a friend's party. Small gathering lang naman. John fetched me around 1 in the morning. Sunday, we woke up at around 7am. It was Sasha's binyag. Pinagsabay na yung binyag ni Sasha and birthday party ni Shanel. After the party, we headed to John's basketball game. I didn't get to watch it kasi natulog lang ako sa sasakyan.



Last week...

I was loaned to Recruitment since last week. My shift is Monday until Friday, 9am until 6pm. It's a day job. It's different as compared to being on the floor. I'm enjoying my stay naman. Ang bilis ng oras and marami kang makikilala na tao from all walks of life.

Marami rin funny stories, especially from the applicants... compile ko muna sila.



Over the weekend...

We filed for a leave and went to Baguio. Finally, nakausap ko na ang beloved cousin ko. I didn't talk to him just so I could change his mind. I just wanted to know what he was thinking. I respect his decision, I truly do. I just pray that he comes up with the right decision, cos this time around, we won't be able to undo it.

This trip has been a learning experience for me. Daig ko pa nga ang nag-retreat e.

Basta, I pray for His guidance. I hope everyone gets enlightened.



This week...

I am so looking forward to this week. Maging hectic man sya or what...





P.S.
Congrats Marcy and Verna! You guys deserve it.

Bored...

(x) i have a cell phone.
( ) i have done/doing drugs
(x) ive been wasted w/ alcohol before
(x) i love cold weather. --sarap matulog
( ) i'm obsessed with the computer
( ) i have shot a gun before.
(x) i can't live without music.
(x) i have no tolerance of ignorant people --as in!
(x) i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
( ) i'll be in this town forever.
( ) i've been to 5 other countries.
(x) i get annoyed easily.
(x) i eventually want kids
(x) i have neat handwriting
(x) i have more than a few horrible memories.
( ) i am addicted to chocolate...
( ) i love airplane rides.
(x) i love taking pictures
(x) i hate people who are fake...
(x) i can be mean when i want to
( ) my parents care about my grades.
( ) i'm obsessed with chap stick
(x) i am easy to talk to
(x) i cry easily
( ) i love winter.
(x) i have too many clothes for my closet
(x) i love to sleep --can sleep 12-24 hours
( ) i wish i were smarter
( ) i'm afraid of flying.
(x) i have a girbaud wallet --which I don't use
( ) i HATE drama.
( ) i love acting.
(x) i have been on an 8 hour car ride --sakit sa pwet
(x) i love the beach
( ) i have never had the chicken pox
(x) i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
( ) i can't control my emotions
(x) i have moved more than once. --imagine kung di ka gumagalaw, e di paralyzed ka. hehe
(x) i truly care about my friends.
( ) i have/had braces.
( ) i love to draw
( ) i love my computer...
( ) i love girls who sing.
(x) i'm a happy person...
(x) i love to dance.
(x) i love to sing --but singing doesn't like me
( ) i love cleaning my room
(x) i tend to get jealous very easily!
(x) i love night better than day
(x) i have been on the phone for over 5 hours
( ) i don't like to study for tests.
( ) i have a flash drive --flashlight, meron.
( ) i have had pneumonia.
( ) i am too forgiving
(x) i have horrible sense in direction. --hands down...
( ) i miss elementary school.
(x) i love kisses.
( ) i should see a therapist.
( ) i play on a sports team.
(x) i become stressed easily.
(x) i hate liars!
( ) i can play the guitar
( ) i love the smell of rain.
(x) i hate needles.
(x) i hate the feeling of failure.
(x) i have friends in other countries.
(x) i know how to cook
(x) i can speak another language... --body language! hehe
(x) at times i can be quite selfish.
(x) at times, i still act like a little kid
(x) i have allergies
( ) i love Babies.
( ) i have problems with letting go of old feelings/memories
(x) i hate being alone.
(x) i love summer.
(x) i love the weekends
(x) i can type with one hand.
(x) i live in a house. --sometimes, in a box.
( ) i can swim.
(x) i sing in the shower.
( ) i have never been camping.
(x) i usually get what i want.
(x) i have been on stage before
( ) i love roller coasters.
( ) no one knows the full story of my life.
(x) i love to read
( ) i wish i were more motivated for school.
(x) i love getting stuff in the mail
(x) i spend too much sometimes --most of the time



Have a great weekend everyone!

Dalawin nyo na lang ako...

... sa presinto!

My sked at work is from 1 until 10 in the morning.
From the office, mga limang tumbling lang and limang somersault, asa pad na ako.
I reach the pad 10-15 minutes after I leave the office.
Dapat tulog nako ngayon.
Dapat nasa Dreamland nako.
Dapat kinukumpleto ko na ang 12-13 hour sleep ko.
Dapat.

Kaso hindi.
Hanep naman kasi.
Bakit naman kasi this week nila naisipan na ayusin yung katabing unit namin.
Pukpok dito. Pukpok don.
Siyet naman!

I already called the Admin office to complain.
Wala daw sila magagawa kasi they have a permit.

E ako kaya, san kaya ko makakakuha ng permit para sakalin or patayin sila?!

4,768 na pukpok as of the moment.
And still counting.

Malapit na.
Malapit nakong pumatay ng tao.


Dalawin nyo na lang ako ha?

Maraming Lalaki sa Mundo...

I am still contemplating whether the title is supposedly a declarative statement or what.

I did mention in a previous post na may pinsan ako na may itinanan. I was able to talk to him and I hope I struck a chord. I told him na he doesn't have to explain anything to me. After all, he'd insist that what he did was right. And of course, I'd contest that. So para wala na lang gulo, I just told him na sana, wala syang regrets sa ginawa nya. I pointed out na since sya yung guy, wala naming mawawala sa family namin to think na naka-graduate na sya. I told him na he should've thought out of the box. Sana naisip nya, na kahit sinong magulang, gugustuhin na makatapos ang anak nila. Well, so much for that kasi nga, nagtanan sila.

And now, the plot thickens. The girl was given an option. She has to continue her studies either at their place or back in Baguio. And be married after her graduation. If you ask me, the option is not that bad. Makakasal sya (which is what she is dying, as in literally, to do!) and at the same time, makakapagtapos sya. It's actually the best of both worlds. Kaso, eto... magpapakamatay daw sya pag hindi sila pinakasal! E kung sakalin ko na lang kaya sya?!

My cousin has no job as of the moment. He quit teaching because he was underpaid. My Tita decided to put up a computer shop for him. With the measly amount that he is getting from the shop, I don't think he can afford to feed a family for now. Do the Math. Expenses nowadays are so astronomical. E pambili nga ng yosi, minsan wala pa sya. I am just being practical here. I'm sorry pero when it comes to marriage, Love is NOT everything! Love will not feed you when you get hungry. Love will not get you into a hospital if you get sick. Love will not provide a shelter for you. Money will... and yun ang wala sila sa ngayon. It's so easy to say that you can always look for a job and try to provide with whatever it is that you will be getting. It's easy to say that they will get by with the support that they will be getting from their parents. But I assure you, these wouldn't suffice.

Babae rin ako. I know where she is coming from. I may not sound it pero I feel for her. But for crying out loud, don't act as if you are a victim in this situation. Kung ano man yung nangyari sa inyo, I'm sure it was with your consent. After everything, ngayon mo lang iisipin yung kahihiyan? You're one twisted person!

Point is, magtapos ka muna. Magpapakasal din naman kayo e. Don't cling to my cousin as if sya na lang ang huling pag-asa sa lahat ng problems mo. Marriage wouldn't solve the problem. It wouldn't undo the things you've done. It wouldn't turn back time. Period.

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I also mentioned na I have a friend who caught her husband cheating. They were able to settle their marital problems and they are trying to work things out.

Kaso ang third party, nanggugulo. Nang-aaway at ayaw magpaawat.



Wala na ba talagang ibang lalaki sa mundo?

Maraming lalaki sa mundo?

Maraming lalaki sa mundo.

From being an Ex to a Friend...

I was listening to RX this morning and Chico said something that made a point. I don't even know what the topic was cos I was half asleep and half contemplating. But judging from his conversation with Delamar, the topic might have been something about The Ex.

I guess their topic was something like How'd you know if You are Over Your Ex.

Chico said something like "You'd know na you are over your ex if you start referring to him/her as your friend instead of the ex..."

He really made a point there. I mean, in the normal order of things, if a relationship ends, the least that you could be with to each other is a friend. It's not something na so hard to do considering na you shared special moments with that person. But of course, you don't achieve that friendship right away. Assuming that you parted amicably, there shouldn't be any problems, right?

Personally, it took me years before I considered my ex as a friend. I was hurt with the break-up. You can't expect me to be friends with the person who broke my heart. I used to hate him, a lot. Just thinking about seeing him again makes me crazy. I wanted to get even. I wanted to kick his ass and make him feel sorry. But like what they always say, "Time heals all wounds." Siguro nagsawa na rin ako sa kaka-plot ng pagpatay ko sa kanya. Lol. It finally dawned on me na ganun talaga, na you can't force a person to love you. The only thing that you could do is be the person that you are and be loved as who you are.

It really takes time, believe me. But when you get to that point, mas magaan ang feeling. I don't know ha, but with me, mas naging at peace ako. Siguro dahil walang baggage na dapat i-drag.


'Vyn, I honestly hope you are happy, at peace and contented as I am.



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Finally, a template na I am so happy with. It took me weeks to look for something like this. Bonus pa kasi it's purple. Lucky, lucky me. :)

Too many Sayangs...

And so I haven't been posting. To start with, I've got nothin' interesting to share.

Work is okay. Finally, my CA's lifted. For one, I can apply for a different position na. Secondly, pwede na ulit mag-absent. Hahaha. Seriously, I was so looking forward to this. I've missed a lot of opportunities. One word, sayang! Oh well, you lose some, you gain some.

I was watching TV yesterday, I chanced upon "Bcuz of U" at Cinema One. I just realized, cute din naman pala si Diether Ocampo. Lol. Showbiz! They look good together ni Kristine Hermosa. Too bad it didn't work out. Again, sayang! Ang ganda siguro ng anak nila if they were able to reproduce. Hahaha. Showbiz.

Missed calls from a cousin in Baguio. Turns out na may tinanan ang beloved cousin ko. My gas! So ancient ha. May mga nagtatanan pa pala sa panahon ngayon. Anyhow, I know na my cousin has his reasons. I just hope that he realizes that this doesn't solve anything. It complicates everything, bigtime! Again, another sayang! He has so much ahead of him. I'm sure that goes the same with the girl. Hay... mga kabataan ngayon... kakaiba!


This week's almost over. It wasn't that bad when I get to think about it. I had my manicure and pedicure. I was able to settle some of my bills. Tapos na rin with the grocery. I just wish I had the time to do some of the stuffs na I was itching to do.


Sayang...

This Weekend...

If you don't get along with one person, that's perfectly okay.

If you don't get along with two persons, read between the lines.

If majority of the ton is having problems with you, you need to think things over.

While it's true that you cannot please everybody, it doesn't hurt if you are nice to everyone.

What comes around, goes around.

And you seriously think that none of these is your fault?

And you think that nothing's wrong with you?

I applaud you're audacity.

Hands down, You are the King of Density.

And you make me puke.



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We're going to a wedding later. And I should be sleeping. Now.


My closet needs a major overhaul. It's begging to be organized. I can hear her whimpering from where I'm sitting.


A manicure and pedicure would be heaven.


A new book won't hurt. I wonder if Cecelia Ahern's If You Could See Me Now is already available at Powerbooks. Hmm...


A basketball game on Sunday. Suporta for the boyfriend.


I want a new phone. What model? No idea...


Grocery list.


Need to pay some bills.



What an exciting life I lead... Yawn.

Procrastinating...

As I am in no position to demand an explanation from you, the most that I could do is spill my guts here.

Whatever makes you happy, go for it. I just wouldn't want you hurt for the nth time.

As I've been telling you for the longest time, as long as masaya ka, masaya na rin ako for you.
The most that I could do is sit back, and wait. After all, you are the driver. Whether this would lead you to a plain joyride or a journey back home, I will await for you. Whether you'd be beaming cos of happiness, or with tears held back in your eyes... I will be here for you. That's what friends are for. Although I hate his guts, I wouldn't mind accepting him as he is as long as he makes you happy. What if it's written in the stars na kayo talaga? Who am I to contradict the constellation? I am no God. Goddess lang. Hahaha. Seriously, if this situation leads you back or away from him, andito lang ako. Whatever decision you take, I will support you.

We can't be procrastinators all the time. Some things are better dealt with, ASAP. I saw you putting this thing off for the longest time. Anyone in your position will be doing the same thing, I assure you. I just hope that this time, as you try to deal with it, you succeed.

Funny, I too, have been putting off a lot of things lately. Feeling ko, I have all the time in the world yet I believe na Life is short, that's why you have to make the most out of it. Contradicting? I know. Tell me about it...

From something as petty as trying to stop drinking Coke, to something as bizaare as trying to fully letting go, the list goes on.

I will deal with them... in my own time.
Let's just wait a little more.

Past Forward...

Nothing significant happened for this week. In short, lumipas na naman ang isang linggo na walang kabuluhan.

Woohoo! September's about to end. First off, at long last, my CA's gonna fall off. And finally, I get the chance to apply for a different position. I am psyching myself not to get too excited though. Madali pa naman ako ma-dissapoint. I am keeping my fingers crossed. Sana I get the chance. Secondly, malapit na Christmas. Ilang months na lang, Christmas shopping na naman. Ano kaya bibilhin ko na gift para sa sarili ko? Hmmm...

Weird ng weather. The other day, sobrang lakas ng ulan at hangin. As I was looking at the office window, feeling ko, dumalaw si Hurricane Katrina. I didn't bring my anti-hangin payong kaya para akong basang pusa when I got home. Tapos ngayon, naka-smile na si Haring Araw! Weird!

Anyhow...

I am soooo loving my metallic purple Havaianas.

Maski ayaw ni John, deadma!

and

Ang haba na pala ng hair ko.

Will keep it that way for now...

Hopefully, next week's gonna be a better week...

Hopefully...

Love Stories...

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher.

In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go!

You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.

Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.

Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow.

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling inlove because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.

You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.

On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejections, to live is to risk dying, to hope is torisk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.

How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderfulimages into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.

Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be.

For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days andfruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way,whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear youapart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.



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And so I went out with my friends last week.
Everyone's well... I guess.

Love has different faces and phases.

Yung isa kong friend, for the longest time, ayaw sya tantanan ng nakaraan nya. Meaning, ayaw sya lubayan ng ama ng anak nya.
Weird phrase?
Here's a backgrounder.
She' s a single mom. The Dad... what do I say about that jerk?! Hmmm... let's put it this way, he's living as if he has no worries. Parang walang anak na dapat intindihin. I know I sound biased pero this is how I see it. It shouldn't be a problem kung ayaw nyang iwan yung friend ko. The thing is, ayaw nyang iwan friend ko, at the same time, ayaw rin nyang iwan yung so-called-girlfriend nya. Something is seriously wrong with him. He can't have them both, naturally. I am in no position to make him choose. Pero naman, for my friend's peace of mind, he has to. Nakakabadtrip ns sya e! Ano ba sya? God's gift to women?! He's got all the signals mixed up. How can he believe na it's gonna work out this way? He makes promises, but never delivers. How can he expect na he has my friend at his beck and call? It's gonna take more than empty promises and sweet messages to win her back. Potek, pati kami na friends nya, you have to win us back!
Good thing, my friend is handling the situation well. She's trying to live her own life now. It's a tough job pero she is getting there.

Yung isa kong friend, she caught her husband cheating. Potek diba? Why get married kung magloloko ka lang naman pala diba? Nobody forced you to marry her. She's one heck of an independent girl! For crying out loud, Marriage is a serious business. You have a family to save. Need I say more? If you're unhappy, cheating won't solve a thing. Lahat naman ng bagay, nadadala sa magandang usapan. Ganun ba kadali kalimutan yung marriage vows nyo? Isa ka pa, batukan kita e!

Yung isa kong friend, mukhang masaya naman. And it's good to know na she is happy. No one has to conform to society just so you can love a person and be happy. As long as wala kayong
nasasaktan na ibang tao, let it be. Stay Happy!

Gotta have one of these...

... Maybe after a couple of years or so. When I'm ready.

Introducing Mikayla Sasha Courtney A. Miranda.

John's pamangkin. Isn't she pretty? Kakagigil. Sarap kagatin.

She's like a breath of fresh air.

Hope to have one... soon.

Catching up with Friends...

I went out last Friday with my HS bestfriends (too bad, wala kaming pic). It wasn't much of a gimmick. We try to meet up for coffee at least every month, or every after two months. O sige na, whenever time and our schedule permits it. Good thing may texts and blogs, so kahit 'pano, updated kami sa buhay-buhay ng isa't isa. Usually, it's just me, She' and She-Anne. This time, may new recruit, Chrissie.

As usual, we can't help but reminisce about the good old days. Ooops, i sound too ancient naman. Rephrase, we can't help but reminisce about the good days.

It was good. Catching up with friends good friends at that.

She-Anne, I saw her profile. You are tooo nice talaga. You find her cute?! Then I'm gonna be the next Supermodel!

LSS...

Take Me Away...
Lifehouse

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone
This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
I've seen enough
And it's never enough
It keeps me leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Why I still care for my Ex...

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone he/she loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again.

But sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring back to life a relationship that just died a natural death.

Set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still it will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest.

One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It's never too late. you may find love and lose it but, when love dies, you never die with it.

You cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is through the test of fire. You cannot be a sober with your mistake forever. We all fall and make wrong decisions but our blunders are not meant to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life.

Loving is always a learning process.. with love we learn how to CARE AND SACRIFICE. We learn to SHARE AND REACH OUT. We learn to be UNSELFISH AND GIVE MORE THAN WE CAN.

Then, when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt. But learning doesn't have to end there. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that LIFE DOESN'T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN.

THERES NO FUTURE FOR RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS.

Its true, there is life in love. But, here can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find yourself again. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency.

Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that... HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.

The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE, WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING.

Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.

IF YOU LOSE LOVE, IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU.

And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.


A man who makes a promise with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them.

ITS TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL.

Love makes us see the things through rose-colored glasses. Most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn't healthy anymore.

You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you and your sanity. There is always a time to think and stop. A time to be sensible and not to allow our hearts to rule over our heads.

YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN WHO KEEPS YOU WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE YOU NOW AND LOVE YOU FOREVER.

If loving a person who is attached to someone else is a crime, then, maybe, many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what its consequences could have been.

Loving someone is never a sin..it's what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin.

DON'T THINK ONLY OF YOUR FEELINGS FOR REAL LOVE DOESN'T HAVE A PLACE FOR SELFISH PEOPLE.

When there is love, there is always sacrifices. When we love someone, we never easily give up on that person. Even is we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt..it is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.

DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOURSELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE.

Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies, if not taken cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies.

GOD WAKES US IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES AWAY PEOPLE WE LOVE SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE ITSELF. HE MAKES US CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE THINK ONLY OF OUR OWN NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS.

Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness are doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been but never will be. God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows.

In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, our choice to hold on is beyond the control of circumstances.

Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us. It is resolution we make to ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darkness and loneliest moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try.

LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME.

There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but WE MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL US WHEN TO RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE.

There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else. There are many times when we love but don't get love in return. THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THE SIGN AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON.

We would say our love is unconditional..but of it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about.

BEING IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE FEELING BEGINS TO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE. WITHOUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE.....



Even if my ex and I didn't end up together, I still get to chat with his brother and sister. That's the good thing about us, although things didn't work out, we've remained friends. Kaya nga when we broke up, I was devastated. I mean, I wasn't just breaking up with him, but with the rest of his family, family nya na through the course of time, naging family ko na rin.

Buti na lang, it didn't turn out that way. Everytime they're online, they don't fail to say hi.

The other day, ka-chat ko brother nya.

The brother asked, mahal ko pa rin daw ba kuya nya. I said yes... but not as much as I loved him then.

I just wanted to be honest. Although we've got separate lives now, I still care for him. I sincerely hope na he is happy as I am. I can't deny the fact na once in my life, he was one of the most important persons in my life. Time will not erase that. We may not be together now, pero I know na I still care for him.

I could afford to be concerned to a friend, why not to an ex diba?

May pinagsamahan din kami. Good or bad, we've shared memories.

Sari-saring Pics...

Sssshhh... quiet! Natutulog si Lani! Baka magising...




Another self-portrait. Alam na alam ko na yung anggulo ko.





Me and Ivan. A futile effort of me trying to fix my hair as artistas does.




Hanep diba? Parang asa bahay lang ako. With matching popcorn pa yan ha!




My first time to eat in a Jolly Jeep. Naks! Milestone eto...

LSS...

Swept Away
Christopher Cross

I never had anything happen so fast
Took one look and I shattered like glass
I guess I let it show
Cause your smile told me you knew
That you're everything I ever wanted at once
There's no holding this heart
When it knows what it wants
And I never wanted anything more than to know you

I was swept away
No one in the world but you and I
Gotta find a way
To make you feel the way that I do
I was swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away

And so it begins
This journey of love
The summer wind carries us to places all our own
The words of a look
The language of touch
The way that you want me means so much
And I never wanted anything more
Than to love you

I am swept away
No one in the world but you and I
Gotta find a way
To make you feel the way that I do
I am swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away
Away, seeing my tomorrow's in your eyes
I was swept away

Ooh, I hope I wake up soon
Ooh, I'm a victim of that crazy moon

The very first time you said my name
I knew it would never sound the same
Something about me has changed forever

Can't you see I am swept away
No one in the world but you and I
Gotta find a way
To make you feel the way that I do
I am swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away
Away, seeing my tomorrow's in your eyes
Gotta find a way
To make you feel the way that I do
I was swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away

We were swept away
Dreaming of you
Swept away

Missing in Action: Jovee

Last Friday, Jovee, TJ, Burn and I were supposed to go out. At the last minute, nag-text si Jovee to tell na us he can't make it. Naturally, I was disappointed. Who wouldn't be diba? Naka-plano na yung lakad days before pa. Only to find out na may hindi makakarating. I try to understand. Sabi nga ni John, hindi naman daw umiikot ang mundo nila sa kin. Point taken. But not yet forgiven. O sige, medyo harsh. I can't say naman na it's okay with me, e hindi naman talaga.

Jovee, honestly, nalungkot ako. I can't explain e. Huwag mo sabihin na during those days naman na hindi sila pwede e ikaw ang naman ang lagi kong kasama. Let's not even go there...

TJ can't stay long dahil she has exams the next day. So, kami ni Burn ang magkasama the whole night. We watched Sky High then afterwards, coffee at Starbucks. Nakakahiya nga kasi lahat ng nanonood ng movie, puro kids. Malamang, e pambata yung palabas e. He stayed at the pad until morning. We had fun. He taught me the wonders of downloading songs through IRC. Uy, thanks sa libre mo ha!

When he was about to go home na, it was raining hard. He had no choice but to take the umbrella I lent him.

Burn, cute ka sana kaso pang-girl yung payong mo!

Palipas Oras...

WHAT


...bothers you ryt now?

I can't figure out kung bakit hindi ko ma-send yung Constantly and Coloured Kisses sa phone ko.

... is your favorite month of the year?

Hands down, December!

... what was you dream last night?
Did I have one?

... is your greatest fear?
Grow old alone.

... was the best thing that happend to you this week?
My profile's still busted so I am still off the phone! Lol!

...are your goals right now?
Be promoted at work. Be healthier. Save more.

...can you promise to the one you love?
Lifetime.

... will you wish for if you have a genie?
To get 10 more wishes...



WHO...


...is the one you're thinking of ryt now?
Yung ka-chat ko sa iRC. Naghahanap ng GF. Ipakilala ko kaya kay Sly.

... do you run to when you're down?
John.

... are the most influential people in your life ryt now?
Mama ko. John. Friends.

...was the last person you went out with?
Burn and TJ.

... is the one you're missing ryt now?
Mama ko.

... will you call/text later?
Most probably si John. To remind him of our lakad later.

... completes your day?
John. At si Coke. Hehehe.

... do you want to talk to ryt now?
Ate Lala or si Tik.



WHEN...


... will you take a bath?
Later. Before kami umalis ni John.

... will you watch a movie?
Pag naisipan ko. Or pag gusto ko.

... was the first time you fell in love?
Yung serious? Sa first BF ko. A long, long time ago.

... was the last time you went out with your friends?
Last weekend.

... was the last time you said " i love you"?
Kanina.

... was the last time you read a book?
Last weekend din.

... was the last time you asked for help?
Forgot na. Pero yung mga simpleng help lang, sus! Everyday!

...was the last time you kissed your dad/mom?
Ages ago...

...was the last time you were really happy?
I am so easy to please. Little things lang, masaya nako.

...was the last time you cried?
Nung firedrill sa office. Ang hirap huminga. Nag-hyperventilate ako.

LSS...

What I Didn't Know...
Athenaeum

I complain
When nothing's even wrong
And you're ashamed
Cause you're not quite that strong

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
I miss your face as you can tell
I hope my absence makes you well

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I am sorry too
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

I am shy
I never speak a word
And you are numb
From all the things you never heard
That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
But now I own an empty space
And I can't fill it with your face

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I believe in you
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

To Die For...

My Gosh! It's early morning and I AM hyperventilating (no, not because of another fire drill...).

But because of these two...


hay...

gush...

kilig...

yummy...

Meet MY Hayden boys... Tommy and Nicky.

Mag-mo-motocross ako, as long as sila ang teachers ko!

Sunday Sentiments...

How did you know...


I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile


My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine


How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there's an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life


I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

Trip Down Memory Lane...

Langya! Si Mitch lang hindi nagbago itsura!

Louise, buti naman at nagpapahaba ka na ng buhok.

Shet! Tagal ko na ngang hindi nagpapakita senyo...

One of these days... Promise!

Validation...

I just can't believe why you had to do that. Why did you have to let me know? We do communicate, I know. Pero trivial stuffs lang. I wasn't expecting na a news as big as that, e ipapaalam mo pa. I could just shrug it off and act indiffirent. But I can't. What's weird is I am so under the impression that I will never be effected by you anymore. What's your business is your business. Wala nang pakialamanan. I was wrong.

When you told me na finally, after us, you're trying to be in another serious relationship, may kurot akong naramdaman sa puso ko. I don't know kung dahil nasaktan ego ko or kung may mas malalim pang dahilan.

I needed to validate everything. I checked your friendster account.

Status: In a Relationship.

So it's true.

Maka-log out na nga.

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I Could Not Ask For More...
Edwin Mc Cain

Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see, The smile upon your face,
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are, Is everything to me,
These are the moments, I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments, I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
And right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.


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This song has been playing on my mind for the past few days. It started out when I transferred the MP3 to my phone. After that, it's all I've been singing everyday. Being the singing diva that I am, I do not know the lyrics. But I know na it is something nice. And so, oo nga.

Hay, I could not ask for more...