Sick and Tired but still Happy

SICK…

I’ve been sick since last week.

Well, I tried weathering it through last week. I had cough, colds and finally fever. And this week, I have Urinary Tract Infection. I know, too much Coke. And to think that I’ve been drinking more water lately as compared to when I’m not sick, ha! UTI! After 2-3 glasses of water a day compared to a droplet or two like two-three weeks ago? Amazing.

AND TIRED…

Don’t people ever get tired celebrating other people’s misery and unhappiness? I’m not trying to be self-righteous or what but one thing I can say about myself is I know when to stop.

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There was an episode in the office two weeks ago that may have contributed to me not feeling too well and eventually, sick.

They can all rant for all they want. I know I’m doing my job and I’m not doing anything wrong. As long as I know that I’m not hurting anyone in any form, then I can sleep soundly at night.

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I’d be Happy If…

… I have a fatter paycheck. Fatter than my non-existent waistline! Hah!

… I can get a copy of Shadow Dance. I’ve been to Powerbooks and National Bookstore for the past few weeks, it’s always sold out. This better be worth the wait.

... I can have another massage at Mandala Spa. I’ve been getting the regular massage from our regular spa every two weeks. This time, I want something special.

… I can celebrate my birthday (and John’s) differently. How different, no idea.

… I can rekindle old friendships with some HS friends. Four years. And to lose contact for this long is just a waste. I’m hoping that the gap isn’t too wide to bridge. We may have different sets of priorities now but heck, we were all friends for 4 freaking years! It won’t be too hard to look for something to look back and laugh at.

… Chris Brown would visit Manila. I am now officially hooked on him. OA na kung OA pero he’s now officially my crush. You can only imagine how many times I watch his videos in youtube.

… I can have an iced-cold Coke right this minute. At dahil may sakit ako, ilang araw na akong hindi nakakainom ng Coke.

And last but not the least,

I’d be deliriously Happy…

… I can finally resume planning the wedding of my dreams.

On Broken Hearts...

How can a love that lasted for 6 years end just like that? How can the person you love the most just cheat on you just like that? If I knew the answers, I’d definitely tell you.

I know you’ve been asking yourself the same questions for the past few days.

All I know is that it sucks big time. Time becomes irrelevant. Whether you’ve been together for 6 years or 6 months, it’s the same $hit.

I hope God guides you well. This won’t be easy, that’s for sure. You’ve been through a lot and I know you’ll weather this out.

It’s highly unlikely that you read this. But just the same, here’s what I have for you.

Heal. Gaya nga ng sinabi ko sayo, the wound may be too painful for now. Just deal with the pain and allow yourself to heal. It’ easier said than done. It’s a process. You are not pressured to come up with a decision now. Otherwise, the decision will most likely be solely based on your emotions. Hayaan mong matuyo yung sugat. After that, that’s when you decide if you’d undergo the surgery, have a tattoo or just let it be.

Love is good. And it should make you feel good. If you are in pain, then maybe it’s not love at all.

He may have loved you. Maybe he still loves you. But I assure you, it’s not the good-kind-of-love which he may have had 6 or 5 years ago. If it were the same love, do you think he’ll have an affair in the first place?

Help yourself. If you think forgetting him would help you move on, then help yourself. Checking his Friendster account every minute won’t help you at all. Listening to your theme song would just most likely remind you of him. I thought you’re trying to forget him?

Your family will always love and accept you no matter what. You may have taken them for granted when you were so in-love. I’m sure it wasn’t intentional. You were just too in-love. And now’s the time to thank them for always being there for you.

Last, but not the least… your friends will always be here for you. Contrary to what he was telling you all this time, your friends will never leave you. Enough said.