Plans, plans...

John and I are planning to go back to the beach house with mama and perhaps, some members of the clan. Makapagbakasyon naman siya.

We can stay at the beach house siguro for two days. Before going back to Manila, we can visit Zoobic.

It has been a while since I went out of town with my family.

When I was growing up, I always spend my summer vacation in the province. Yup, probinsyana ako and I’m proud of it.

Naka-miss nga e. Those were the days.

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Civil Wedding? The suggestion has merits. I am googling the requirements as I am writing this. Okay naman. While waiting for the church wedding, pwede naman na magpa-civil wedding muna kami.

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I'm at a point where I am seriously considering things that I wouldn’t have thought of doing a month or week ago.

I am starting to explore what’s outside of my comfort zone.

I wouldn't want to go through life with a lot of what-ifs.

E baka naman kasi may magandang naghihintay na kinabukasan sa iba diba?

Vacation Mode

Finally! Nakapag-out of town trip na kami ni John.

We went to Monetemar over the weekend. Super saya. We were with my HS besties. Super bitin pero just the same, I had so much fun.

Next plan namin is makabalik sana sa Bora. Sana... I am keeping my fingers crossed.

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Super bitin ang bakasyon namin. I'm still in vacation mode. Parang ayoko na ngang bumalik sa office e. Heheh.

The team can manage on their own naman yata kaya carry lang.

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As I'm writing thism pinapanood ko si Piolo and Juday.

Mukhang maganda sa Sagada. Kung mabubuhay lang sana ko sa ganung environment.

Hanggang pictures at TV na lang siguro ako.

Not this December...

It’s not gonna happen in December.

I've been repeating this phrase to myself for the past few weeks thinking that by doing so, I would have better chances of accepting it.

No matter how valid the reason may be, I am still having a hard time grasping the realization that I won’t be walking down the aisle in December.

I've been putting this off since I found out about it.

The moment John told me that we may have to push our wedding date, I just had to see my best friends. I had hard time breathing and I know, seeing them and talking to them would somehow alleviate the pain I am feeling.

I am still reeling from the shock.

I am still trying to get over the gut-wrenching pain.

I am still trying to validate the reason.

I am still trying to deal with it.

I am trying.

And God knows I am failing.

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This doesn't make me love John any less. I love him. What gets me going is the fact that regardless, whether it's not going to be this December, it's bound to happen.

I will walk down the aisle towards the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.

It may not be in December.

But it's going to be soon.