I Miss...

...blogging and net surfing. I wish I have all the time in the world. Who would have thought that just 3 weeks ago, I was getting paid to surf the net and bum around.



...hanging out with my cousins in our province. Deep down inside, may promdi side ako, I know! When I was in High School, I'd rather go home to the province than be stuck in Manila. I had my fair share of prusisyons and sagalas. Eating bibingka and barbeque in front of the church after a Sunday afternoon mass. Eating Indian mangoes on top of the roof (and I must say, I had the hardest time of climbing up that darned tree!) The wantusawa ghost stories in the bukid (my mamang and papang's house in the well... bukid). Argh... I'd give up anything just to be back in those days.



...hanging out with my FRIENDS. Be it those my Highschool Bestfriends or my HSBC friends. Heck, pati na rin Bangags. I miss chillin' out with them. I miss their kwentos and chismises. I miss them... a lot!



...having a vacation. Gawd, last time I took one was last May lang. Seems like ages ago. I want to unwind. I want to go somewhere. Kahit saan. Soon.



I know that there's a lot that I've been missing. Oblivious lang siguro ako at this time dahil I am so occupied.

At gaya nga nung kanta, Late at night when all the world is sleeping... I'd come up with all those things that I am missing. And when I have the time, idadagdag ko dito. *wink wink



***

We went to Mall of Asia last Sunday. I didn't enjoy my first visit. Siguro dahil super daming tao and I didn't now where to look for what. Give it more time and I'm sure, it'll grow in me.



***

I was watching ASAP's tribute to Apo Hiking Society last Sunday and I can't help but be emotional when the three sang "San na nga ba". Oh well, emotional naman talaga ako forever pero I was really teary eyed during their production number. Nakakaantig naman kasi talaga.



Later!

I'd Rather...

I'd Rather.

Another product of another unproductive day at the office.

I'd rather eat at Tony Roma's than Melo's. The price is almost the same pero the taste is world's apart. Based on experience ha.

I'd rather use Pantene than Creamsilk. Mas hiyang kasi buhok ko e.

I'd rather spend more buying Havs than buy those cheaper slippers. Kasi naman bad experience for me. May nabili nga ko na slip on na super mura (100 pesoses lang) kaso naman, nasugat paa ko. Kainis! Never ulit na bili ako ng hindi Havaianas.

I'd rather be with one person that I trust than with a bunch of people na fake naman lahat! In times of trouble or happiness, mas gusto ko na kasama yung tao na I'm very open with. I wouldn't fear exposing myself nor sharing too much. No questions asked, that person will take me as I am. What will I do with a group of people na puro pretensions, baka mabwisit lang ako.

I'd rather have an engagement with THE ring than engaged agad muna then the ring is to follow. Haller! Sabihin nyo na na materialistic ako, siguro nga (pero hindi naman talaga). E gusto ko ng engagement ring e. I've been dreaming of that since bata pa ako. No ring, no engagement. Tapos.

I'd rather be the one who got away than the one who let go. For me, parang mas masakit yung latter. I'm the type of person na mas mauunang umalis kesa maiwan sa wala. I dunno. Self preservation perhaps?

I'd rather drink a not-so-cold Coke than an iced cold Pepsi (or Iced tea or kung ano pa man).

I'd rather have coffee somewhere than to a crowded bar with friends. This way, mas madali at mas masarap makipagkwentuhan.

I'd rather buy a cheaper item na okay naman ang design and quality than buy a designer something na super exorbitant ang price.

I'd rather have a so-so wedding with the man of my dreams than have the wedding of my dreams with a so-so man.

I'd rather be harsh and be honest than be a hypocrite and sugarcoat something na unacceptable naman. If I'm gonna be labeled bruha (or maldita, or kung ano man) because of that, so be it at least honest ako.

I'd rather clean the toilet and wash the dishes than clean the house.

I'd rather watch CSI Las Vegas than CSI Miami. Di ko type dramatic charcter ni Horacio e.

I'd rather dip my spam to mayonnaise than catsup.

I'd rather go to Disneyland Hong Kong than Boracay next summer.

I'd rather have a dog than a cat for a pet.

I'd rather have a liposuction than a nose job. Mas ok na pango ako basta may bewang. Lol.

Lastly, I'd rather be this Ma-an than any other Ma-an. I wouldn't have myself any other way. Hahaha. Ü

Sana...

Sana...

Sana walang maging problema sa mga requirements ko.

Sana maging happy ako doon.

Sana maganda yung sked na ibibigay nila sa kin. Sana may weekend off.

Sana the people there are friendly.

Sana I can understand you more. Ang weird mo naman kasi. Minsan ikaw nag-p-promise. Sinasabihan mo pa ko na gisingin kita lalo na pag weekends kung may lakad naman tayo. When I wake you up naman, sinasabihan mo ko na sana intindihin kita na wala ka pang tulog. E di ba ikwa nagsabi na gisingin kita in the first place? Ang labo mo.

Sana makapunta ko ng Baguio next month or next next month. I need to unwind.

Sana pumayat nako. Maski di ako gumagawa ng effort para pumayat. Lol.

Sana makumpleto ko na yung mga books na gusto ko.

Sana madagdagan collection ko ng bags and Havs. Kelan kaya ulit kami punta ng Greenhills? Hmm...

Sana mahimbing tulog ko later.

A Step Closer...

I want to write something witty but words escape me.

Siguro it's better if I just write from the heart. Anyhow, I'm not writing to impress someone or win a Pulitzer or something. I just wanna share what I feel right now.

Yesterday, I went to meet up some of my high school best friends. First fitting daw ng gowns kasi I'm one of the bridesmaids sa wedding nung isa in March. Sure, I wanna see the designs but I'm not too happy about them measuring my bust line and my non-existent waistline (seriously, where'd it go? ).

Anyhow, I realized, this isn't about me. It's about a step closer to one of my besfriend's dream coming true. This means that finally, she's gonna have the wedding of her dreams. Kasi nga, sukatan na ng gowns. Hanep sa logic, diba?

Not too long ago, may mga hirit sya na napag-iiwanan na sya and the she's always the bridesmaid. You want proof? Eto.

Now, I am writing this to reminisce and at the same time, remind myself that God works in mysterious ways.

Kasi...

I too, am thinking at times that I am always the bridesmaid and never the bride.

I too, am thinking that napag-iiwanan na yata ako.

I too, am thinking the He has plans for me.



Thinking and analyzing too much won't get me anywhere. I just have to trust Him. Di naman nya ko pababayaan, for sure.

It might take a while pero I'll get there.

Someday...

My Stand on One Night Stands

Mall of Asia
Contributed by mirage (Edited by alteredbeast)

They went to Mall of Asia the morning after they had sex for the first time.
It wasn't their first time to spend the night together but lots of firsts certainly took place that day - their first kiss (with each other), their first make out session which eventually led to their first fuck.

Everything went too fast. All she could remember was that they were about to sleep when he wrapped his arms around her. She snuggled at his chest as her hand rested on his back. They were doing this for months: sleeping together, wrapped in each other's arms, but that night was different. When she heard his deep breaths and felt him trace his fingers on her back, she knew that night would be different.

She couldn't remember exactly what happened next. She just found herself kissing him as his hands explored her body. That night, everything that was wrong felt so right for her. When he finally asked if he could enter, she didn't have any hesitations.

Neither one of them talked about what happened when they woke up that morning. She was the first one to get up. She fumbled through the sheets to look for her panties. She glimpsed at the naked person sleeping on her bed as she put on her clothes.

Minutes after, he got up and asked her where his briefs were. "Sa'n mo tinapon ang briefs ko?" He kidded as they both searched. She found his briefs under her bed and he snatched it from her hand. He saw the stains on her sheet and teased her about it. Everything seemed so casual.

They went out to have goto for breakfast. They could have stayed at her place and cooked breakfast but she didn't want her housemate to find him there. With nothing else to do, nowhere to go, and the day to spare, they decided to go to Mall of Asia.

Having opened just three weekends ago, they wanted to find out what the fuss was all about.
He and she walked aimlessly around the mall, lost in the throng of strangers. She wore plain houseclothes and slippers and he wore the same clothes he was wearing the day before.

They checked the IMAX theater. Superman would be out in two weeks and the attendants were already accepting reservations.
"Nood tayo Superman sa IMAX," he said.
"Mahal eh, 350."
"Sige na, just for the experience."
"Sige," she conceded.

(A few weeks later, they would each watch Superman separately. She paid 350 to watch it at Gateway while he watched it at Glorietta with someone else. She didn't bother asking.)

They went on with their aimless stroll in the mall until he invited her to have coffee at Starbucks. With his coffee jelly and her _mocha frap, they watched people from the glass wall, and talked about the weather. Nobody dared mention the events of the night prior.
While they were at the mall, he would put his hand on her shoulder or she would cling to his arm but they never held hands. When they got tired of walking, they went back to her place to sleep. They ordered KFC for dinner, watched random shows on cable until he decided that it was time for him to go home.

As she walked him to the door, he gave a perfunctory "una na ako" and left. There was no tender goodbye, not even a kiss on the cheek.

What happened to them the day after they had sex for the first time was hardly romantic. Why would she expect romance? Sex between friends is never romantic.

***

People she knew who had been to Mall of Asia had varied reactions. Some were impressed: andun na lahat ng stores, mapa-high end or jologs; ang romantic ng view ng bay; and ang galeng nung IMAX, para kang kasama sa pelikula were some of the praises. Others were disappointed: ang daming tao; hindi covered iyong nasa gilid, ang inet; and ang layo, were the lamentations.
However, when they asked her what she thought of the mall, she had no opinion. Although she saw the enormous skating rink, the scenic view of the bay, and the tram, these were insignificant details. She couldn't remember anything, except that it was where they went the morning after they had sex for the first time.
She never returned to Mall of Asia.

*****
MY SAY.

Obviously, I got this from this link peyups.com.
One word.
Harsh with a capital H.

I've had just one One Night Stand in my whole life ever. Oh well, let me define One Night Stands. According to me, eto yung mga relationships na di mo sure kung may patutunguhan. Tipong at the end of it all, sasabihin mo sa sarili mo, honey, sex lang yun, asa ka pa! Pero fortunately for me though kasi I ended up with that person.

I was drunk with depression when my first bf and I broke up. I was so lost and siguro, part of me wants to forget. I thought [i]doing[/i] it with someone else would make me feel better. Lucky lang talaga siguro ako kasi I had no regrets after that.

One Night Stands. It's too risky. It's always easier said than done that one can do it without the emotions (unless siguro, as in sanay sanay ka na).

If you think you've got nothing else to lose, do it.
If you are unsure, think about it.
But of course this is just me...

Oprah Writes About Men...

OPRAH WRITES ABOUT MEN



If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If hedoesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.Stopmaking excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with her, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the ending... compromise is a two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about
baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... arelationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.



Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.