Thursday, July 06, 2006

Jesus Take the Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her mama & her daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to a shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said, "I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight"

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh



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First time I absorbed the lyrics of this song, I felt a tear in my eyes.
I was moved and I was definitely touched.
I am a Roman Catholic.
I studied at Catholic schools all my life.
And yet, I know that in one way or another, I am not acting as catholic as I can be.
I can't remember the last time I heard mass.
I can't remember the last time I confessed all my sins.

I am not making up excuses.
It's just that this is my stand.

I always tell people that though I don't hear the mass as often as I should, it's okay because I have a personal relationship with God. And that, more than anything else in the world, is far more important than going to churches or hearing masses.

I believe in God.
I really do.
It's just that I have a funny way of showing my faith to Him.

I can always talk to him.
I don't have to be in the confines of the church to do that.
I can just close my eyes and freely talk to him.

I don't have to set a specific day nor time just so I can communicate with Him.
It ain't that hard to find Him anyway.
I just have to look inside my heart.
And as always, He's there.


*****


It's so all behind us now...

-and so it's confirmed that you already have a kid. I shouldn't be concerning myself with this anyway kasi nga naman diba, it's all behind us now.

-it's kinda unbelievable that just a couple of weeks ago, I thought I was having the hardest part of my life and that I might not pull it off. Funny cos I'm still here. I'm tough pala naman talaga. Anyway, again, it's all behind us now.

Ikakasal na Siya...

Ikakasal ka na daw.
Mega-react naman ako.
Ha? Kanino? Kelan? Bakit?

Linawin ko lang ha.
Wala na tayo.
Antagal na.
3 years na. o 4 nga ba?
Anyway, basta wala na tayo.

You might be wondering.
Since wala na tayo, e bakit naman mega-react pa ko nung nalaman ko na
Ikakasal ka na.

Beats me.

Siguro dahil unconsciously, iniisip ko, kung tayo pa rin, e di sana, tayo yung ikakasal.

Siguro dahil naaawa ako sa babaeng ihaharap mo sa dambana. goodluck sa kanya diba.

Siguro dahil mega-reactor lang talaga ako.

Siguro dahil in a way naiinggit ako. buti ka pa, ikakasal na. ako kaya, kelan?

Hay...

Sige na nga, take two.

Ikakasal ka na daw.

And so?
Queber.

*****

I can only imagine kung ano nga magiging reaction ko if I find out na you will be getting married.

We're so not together anymore. True.

But regardless, tayo man or hindi, once upon a time we were together. And once upon a time, we were happy.

Memories.

Yun na lang talaga.

Memories...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Because I am Bored...

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)


You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

Answer Me.

Hindi naman talaga ako mapanglait na tao.
(O, pakibaba mga kilay.)

Minsan lang talaga, may mga taong kakaiba.
For some reason, ibang klase sila.

Like what I always say,
'di ako pintasera, nagsasabi lang ako ng totoo!'

*****

Lalo na sa Grammar.

I admit. I am not perfect (maganda lang talaga ako, yun lang. lol!). I am not a police grammar. Pero at least, alam ko naman na 'pag masakit pakinggan, most often than not, mali yung grammar.
May mga ka-engotan din ako na nagagawa or nasasabi pero I can get away with it.

Kung bakit naman kasi may mga tao na umaapaw ang self confidence at sobrang bilib sa sarili.
It's okay to love yourself pero 'wag naman to the point na highest level na.

'Di ko naman talaga ugali na mang-bash ng tao (ows, talaga? lol.)
But my gas, you leave me no option.

Sige nga. Read on.
Tingnan ko lang kung 'di ka maloka.
I'm sure you'll agree with me.


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The Devils Wears Prada

We're gone. (meaning: wala na kami.)

I forget... you need to blah blah blah. (meaning: nakalimutan nya sabihin sayo or banggitin)

If the user is not replied to in 2 minutes, he will jump to another operator. (meaning: 'pag di mo naasikaso yung customer, mapupunta sya sa ibang queue)

much probably


*****


Sumakit ba ulo mo?
Ako slight.
Partida, wala pa yung mispronounced words dyan.


Kakaiba diba.


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So, how well do you know me?
Yup.
I am talking to you...
How well do you know me?
That well?
Really?
Sige nga.

Let's see.