Friday, July 15, 2005

On and on...

And so I am tired. Tired of everything. Work hasn't been agreeing with me. Sometimes, when things are too monotonous and routinary, you lose your balance. If things were easy as 123, I would have found another job by now. But then again, after a couple of months or so, I'd be back to where I am now. Why can't I be happy with what I am doing now? Hmmm... bakit nga ba?

You try to divert your attention, you try to look at the positive side, meron nga ba? Is this God's will? Sabi nila, if it's God's will, He'll help you get it... Well, I got this. Is this His will?

Hay... why is it taking me this long to be the person that I'd wanna be. Simplify things daw. If I do that, will I be happier?

Daming tanong, it just boils to this... I AM UNHAPPY! State of mind lang ba 'to or what?

Your guess is as good as mine... ewan!

Monday, July 04, 2005

Awake and working...

Aargh! The pains of working in a call center... I am back to night shift... back to the world of the living dead... Funny, before I got this job, I was informed that it's gonna be a shifting schedule and here I am, complaining and ranting. People... they never get contented nga naman.

The laptop's still not fixed. Nakakainis na nga e. The techie people has nothing to say except na it is still being requested to be fixed, they're still waiting for the parts, blah blah blah. It's getting monotonous na. At hindi na sila nakakatuwa.

I met up with a friend last Sunday. I really missed her. We had so much kwento to catch up on. Seeing her made me think... what if I took that FA job when I just graduated, would I have been happier with life now? When I think about it, puro regrets at remorse and nafi-feel ko. I gave up that opportunity cos of one person. Turns out na that person wouldn't be permanent in my life pala. Lesson learned: do not decide based on what someone's gonna be feeling. You do your thing, if it's for you, you decide on your own.